Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder

How I could leave this life

Maybe I could sneak downstairs

And steal a kitchen knife

Maybe I could drown myself

Or even jump to my doom

Perhaps I could fake my death

And then die under my tomb

No one would know

And no one would care

Maybe if I could sneak away

And find a hunter's snare

Maybe I could leap out

Right in front of a car

The driver would survive for sure

But I wouldn't get very far

I could drink poison if I wanted

All I'd have to do is drink

Alcohol or poison...

That really makes me think

I could high jack a gun

From some robber or gang

Either way I'd be hunted down

And then you'd hear the gun bang

Maybe I could find some rope

The materials are me and the string

I'd run away to do it

They'd never suspect a thing

Maybe I should starve myself

That'd be the hardest way out

Or constantly throw up

That'd work for sure without a doubt

I could enlist the help of someone

To kill me and then stage it

So that it appeared as a suicide

But the shot would probably miss

Perhaps a few pills

Will work their way through me

And then I'd get numb

I wouldn't be able to see

Why can't vanishing be easier

Like I read of in books

There's so many options

I wouldn't get any more looks

But sometimes I wonder

Is this the right thing to do?

I was told that everyone had a purpose

Will I find mine soon?

Maybe he will come

At just the right time

To save me from myself

And the evil of my own mind

I never told them anything

I never thought it'd matter

When they see my still body

My clothes blood soaked and tattered

I hear the footsteps approching me

I've done everything I can

Then I'll jump out the window

Escape and say I ran

They'll never catch me

I'm too fast

But I know better than anyone

That I will never last

Sometimes I wonder

Why nature is so cruel

But I trust him to know

That I am not a fool

I will run forever

I will never stop

Until I know my time is up

I will keep going 'til I drop

Sometimes I wonder

Where he is now

It's been ten long years

And I've stopped looking down

He's been here all this time

In the very same town

He's been with me all along

I've finally been found

As he takes me in his arms

He said he'd never stopped searching

Knowing that I would come back

As soon as I'd stopped hurting