How To Love A Friend And A Partner

Don't You Remember?

Don't you remember?
The question I kept asking was when will I see you again? You left with no goodbye or a single word worth it. Ever since, I wish I had wings like the bird to fly. I wish I could swim like the fish. How abnormal I have become. Now I live with a heavy heart and pain in my eyes. You don't even write to me anymore. My head feel heavy to move around because I may never found out the reason why you left me.
I am confuse because it is said that,..
You only feel this way when your partner is no more with you. But she was never a partner.
She was out of a relationship but I was in it. First thing first I never denied a friendship. The friendship was pure. If I was sick then it was my cure. Because the few minutes spent together chatting felt like every second was worth it.
She was bitter, with a heart full of agony. All men are the same she kept saying. In all her conversation she never wanted to have anyone around her. Not even friends or a partner.she was a lonely person. The quite type. But she was the definition of pure beauty. A body like a model and a skin like a queen. I gave her my hand and all I said was let have a walk. She rejected and said no. But deep inside her eyes, she wanted to spend sometime around. Out of all the pain she had been through she was still lovely. I called her the beautiful beast. Because she had both the sweet part and the hard to get part. She was never okay with me because I made it clear I wasn't single.
Many men tried, and many men failed. What an irony how come she felt something for a man she never dreamt to meet. A man she never thought he could be hers.
Days passes by and so as the night. She thought she wasn't lucky with men. I guess that is why she left with no goodbye. She tried avoiding to fall in love but she forgot she already fell inlove. She avoided what was stronger than her. The more you run, the more u get hurt. So whereever you are just come back. Life begins with just a handful of help. Hold my hands. Let me make u believe it is well again. Feel proud of yourself. Feel good about yourself. I can't make you feel love for me but I can drive away the past pain. I know I hurt you. You despise me and you never want to see me. Because you fell for the wrong person. That is what you kept saying. The friendship was sweet. She was always around. Both on the street and in the house. Our days was made with laughter and smiles. Jokes and music. But when will I see you again?. I wish I could turn the tables and corrected the sweet mistakes I made around you. But I can't take back time. All I ask for is let me see you again.
I know you are out there all alone or probably with a new person, a new friend, a new guy or a partner. But nothing could be compared to what we had. What we shared. There was more care and connection even with no intention of any sexual intercourse. But it was still worth it.
Whatelse can u say about a true friend. I made up my mind and I dont think about anything because if I am wrong then I am as well right. I am telling the world that I may not give up on you. I know I am chasing pavement. I am speaking to the wind. But I have build myself up. I may smoke in the rain, I dont care. I may drop down from the car just at a sight of you. I know it leads nowhere because I know our pain. We may never meet again. But everything happens for a reason. I know you left for a reason but just come back home anytime you feel lonely. Because you may need a shoulder to cry on or a hand to walk around with again. When the rain falls on your face and the wind blows on you..I could always offer a hug and hold u for a million years just to make u feel my love. Something I never showed you or never gave you......just remember me whenever you feel like and whereever you are. Just come back home. Remember there is no place like home!!!