Perfect Disaster:Phan

Chapter One

*Dan's pov*

Sometimes I wish you were just a human to me. An ordinary person I didn't know. I wish I could unthink the lovely thoughts about you. I wish I didn't admire everything about you. The rapid beating of my heart was something I couldn't control. The feeling of having you near was something I craved. When I first realized I loved you I thought about you as stars, gentle and beautiful in the most unique way. When I got closer and got to know you I realized you were also gentle and beautiful in the most unique way. Though this might sound great, you can't reach stars. I couldn't reach the stars but I could only admire, and for me that was good enough. At first it was. Later on my feelings started blossoming even more. Each day I found myself wondering when you will look at me the way I look at you. In my black and white world, you seem to be the only thing that brings color. I found myself lacking oxygen with just your presence. I lay in bed, not being able to sleep, thinking about you. Before I met you I was empty and now my stomach is filled with butterflies,my head is filled with love songs on repeat,and my world is filled with meadows and the beautiful sunshine. When everything seemed at ease I remembered no matter how much I wanted you I couldn't have you. I then became empty again and my beautiful world was now filled with storms. I love you. I love you so much. I want you to hold me in your arms. I want to tell you what I feel but I'm worried that you'll reject me. I can't have you and that hurts, because after all, you aren't even mine. You're his. I see how your eyes light up at his sight. I see how your smile is brighter in his presence. I see you love him as much as I love you.