Cess & Red

Chapter 1

Jared

It was a normal day.

I mean, a very normal day as it is now the first day going to a normal school where students were not nearly normal at all.

I accidentally woke up early by three in the morning. I know what you're thinking by that three in the morning, but it wasn't like that. The heat was killing me softly and I can't force myself back to sleep. Really, I am not excited or happy about my new day as a senior student. I think everybody feels the same way as mine. And with the fact that I am undergoing a bad situation with someone in school doesn't light up my mood. Anyhow, I've just played my piano for the next hour. Piano is my favorite musical instrument of all time. Maybe it's because I never played any instrument in my whole life except for piano. Our family is musically-inclined and it's because we serve in church. My father is a pastor and my mother is just a simple housewife. They're really dedicated for their duties as parents for us and to our church. They support both me and my sister for everything we need. That's the reason why we're always alright.

As I played the chords of A Thousand Years, all I remember was her. My Princess Diana. I mean, her name was literally Princess Diana but the irony was: she's not really mine. She's by someone else now. Yes, I know it's confusing. But she's never been mine legally. Like not even once before. I didn't appreciate her efforts completely. I just think that she's the one who courted me. All I did was let her go. People can call me what they want for letting her leave my life. You can blame me for seeing her with another guy at her side. I regret it. I really do. But it wasn't just easy to open a relationship with someone especially when you're not ready. Yeah, it sums it all. I guess everybody knew the reason behind my stupidity. It's not me who's wrong. It's my mind's fault for predicting my own love life. I should've followed my heart. Maybe it's worth the risk. Maybe this time, we're happily together. Maybe I don't see her with just anybody else. Maybe I'm not hurt like hell while remembering my reluctant decision. Maybe I am not stuck with maybe's.

Quarter to five when my mon finally awoke and checked me out in my room. She was shocked when she heard someone playing piano. She guessed it was a ghost because the song is a bit melancholic. I just played A Thousand Years for the nth time because I love it. I love the tune it makes and it wakes my memory up. I don't know why but she just get in to my room and started a conversation out of the blue with me in the middle of the dawn.

"For her?" she asked like she didn't really know the answer. I knew mom already guess that. I didn't speak up and I know mom took it as my answer. Yes.

"You can still call her here." she suggested. I stopped pressing the keys. All in the air was just a complete silence except for the cars that pass by in this early hour.

Call her here? Let her visit my house? My family? It's not that easy. I can't see her in that way, that she's deeply in love with someone else and I'm still giving her the chance of meeting my parents. Yes, I let her go but that doesn't mean I am the only one who's totally wrong in our situation. I could say that I can blame her on my own. I said that she should wait and I will, too, for the right time. Didn't she understand that we're still young in heart? She's in hurry of attention, and that was something I really don't want to. But still, I love her. I love her wholly but I still can't go. She didn't understand that anyway. It's really awkward socializing with her this time. We are on the same circle of friends but we don't do much talking except for school matters. There's no hello anymore. Just force smiles.

"I'm going to take a bath." I said then stood up from my seat. I headed to my room's bathroom immediately without turning my head to mom.

After just few seconds, I heard the door creaked and the lock just clicked. A sign that mom already left my room. She would either sleep or cook for breakfast.