living or survival( #wattys2016 )

Tired

I'm tired of fakeing a smile
I'm tried of being bullied by the people who should love me
I'm tired of lieing
I'm tired of countless nights of tears
I'm tried of wanting to hurt myself
I'm tired of feeling this deep pain that won't leave
I want to be happy agian
I want to be the real me
I want to hear just people not voices in my head
I want to be normale
I'm tried of being depressed
I'm tried of thinking of killing myself
I'm tired of losing so much sleep to my nightmares
I want to love some one with out worrying what they will think of me
I want to wear a skirt or dress with out being self conscious
I want to smile and laugh again
I want my boyfreind and freind not to have to worry about losing me
I'm sick and tired of all this hell
All the tears
All the pain
I'm tired of it