It's All Going To Be Okay. I Promise.

~It Will Be Okay. I Promise.~

~~~Hey guys~~~

I have recently become increasingly aware of the unfortunate plights of a lot of people I know. When I say that, I mean depression. A lot of people I'm good friends with have bad cases of depression, and I'm fortunate enough for those people to trust me enough to tell me what's on their minds, and my God. It breaks my heart to hear how they feel. If I had my way, I would suck all of that depression out of you, and dispose of it. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way. So, here is where I will attempt to try and make every single one of you feel even the tinniest bit better.

For those who are bullied : Luckily, I've never been bullied, but I've witnessed bullying happen, and I've had friends come to me to explain what is happening to them. People say the worst things ever, especially online. The horrible thing about it, is that some people are smart enough to lie about their identity, so that they can say things about others and no one will find out its them. Personally, that's why I stay away from most social media, but I can understand why it appeals to people. First of all, I want you to know, that if people use personal issues, such as a death of a family member/friend or struggles at home, fuck them. Metaphorically, of course. But, that is absolutely horrible. They have no right to do that, because first of all, its none of their damn business, and second of all, it is so unfair. Don't listen to that shit. Also, a lot of people abuse the fact that some are insecure of their bodies, and faces, and they'll call you fat or ugly. Don't listen to that shit either, because I can promise you, that you are neither fat nor ugly. "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder," so if one person doesn't find you attractive, I can promise you, another one will. One of the worst thing's I see, is people telling someone to kill themselves. I honestly don't even know what to say about that. It pisses me off SO much. Who the hell do you think you are telling someone to kill themselves? If you're telling someone to kill themselves, please, honestly rethink yourself. What are you trying to accomplish? I genuinely don't get it. If you're being told to kill yourself, please, honey, do not listen to them. They don't know anything. Do not give them what they want. I don't know what they're trying to accomplish, whether its to try and be cool, or to to make themselves feel better, they should not be doing it at anyone else's expense. No one has the right to judge you based on how you live your life. Just remember, in 20 years, when you've got a spouse, kids and a successful career, those people who bullied you in high school and elementary/middle school, won't matter. Hell, they may have shaped you into the person you are that day. Don't let them determine your future. You are the maker of your own world. No one else can control how you live your life. Don't forget that. "When people hurt you over and over, think of them like sandpaper. They may scratch you, and hurt you, but in the end, you end up polished, and they end up useless."

For those with eating disorders : Honey, whether its anorexia, bulimia, binge eating or anything in between, you're beautiful. And if people tell you differently, they don't deserve to be in your life. You are far too beautiful to deprive your body of food or to fill it to the point where you feel you might vomit. I find it difficult to put it into words, and I wish I could, but I can't. No matter what people say about you, if you feel comfortable in your own body, that's all that matters. If you feel sexy being 100lbs, 130lbs, or 200lbs, then ignore the hell out of everyone else, and just be you. "In recovery : I'm learning to love myself again. I'm discovering that I can trust myself and take care of myself. I'm finding out what that what I really need is to nurture my body and spirit. Believing in myself, and working my recovery is the most important step in achieving the life I desire for myself. The life I am worthy of... The life I deserve."

For those who contemplate suicide everyday : I have no idea what your situation is, but I've seen what the thought of suicide does to people, and to know that thousands of people feel that way everyday is honestly agonizing. If I could take that sinking feeling away from you, I would do it, I swear. Please, if you ever extremely suicidal, call one of the numbers below. Suicide is extremely serious, but I want you to know I care about you wholeheartedly, and if I can do anything to relieve the pain that inhabits your mind and body, I promise I will. But seriously, message me, and I will help you. I love you. So much. Never forget that. "Place your hand over your heart. You feel that? It's purpose. You're alive for a reason. Promise me you won't forget it."

For those with insecurities : Believe me, I could tell you all about insecurities. There are days where I hate absolutely everything about myself, and honestly, those days happen often. More often than not, actually. Insecurities range from hating your teeth, to hating your laugh, to hating your body. God, insecurities are the absolute worst, because they make you self conscious, and when you're self conscious, you start to shy away from people, so on and so forth. It's just a never ending cycle of self-loathing. That is, if you don't change that. I want you to know, it isn't worth it to waste your thoughts on contempt towards yourself. Look in the mirror every morning when you wake up and say, "Wow. I look great today!" Keep telling yourself that. Try complimenting other people on things you like about them. This is beneficial to both you and the person, because you will boost their self-esteem and and their opinion of you, which may result in them complimenting you, which will boost your self-esteem. Life's too short to waste time worrying about what other people think of you. Do anything that will make you happy. "You are good enough, smart enough, beautiful enough and strong enough. Believe it and stop letting insecurity run your life."
When I'm feeling insecure about, such as my weight, there's this poem I listen to. It's called Slam Poetry. The only I listen to is called FAT, and I will post the link after this paragraph. I highly suggest you listen to it because it makes me feel better most of the time. Personally, I connect profusely with the beginning of it. Not what happens to the girl, but how she felt. Do not be discouraged by the beginning, which is basically the girl going back to when she had an eating disorder. The ending is amazing. Nothing has ever given me chills like it. That poem made me feel like I could conquer the world. Now, if you listen to it, I'm not saying that's how it will make you feel, but it's entirely possible. So please, at the request of me, give the poem a listen and comment what you thought of it.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=n8etjMnKeck

So to sum all of this up, I want you to know I love every single one of you. I love every part of you, because you are beautiful, both inside and out. I know what the feeling of loneliness is and I know how it can make you think, but I've realized that you never are truly alone. There is always someone who will stand by you, whether it's an internet friend, or a parent, or someplace in between. There's a quote I live by : "You gotta fall before you fly". Its from Who Are You Know by Sleeping with Sirens. So remember, there may be a dropoff in your life for a while, but it won't last long. You will get back on your feet, and I promise I will do everything in my power to help you get there faster. Make the scars on your wrist become your past. You're strong enough to drop that blade. You're strong enough, and I know it.

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I seriously hope this has helped you in any way, shape or form. If you think this might help someone else, please share it with them. Thank you for reading this. I love you all. <3 :-*