Nowhere to run and hide, when you're living to die. (Johnny Christ)

Chapter 3

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~Johnny's POV~

My eyes stared into her back, as I watched her figure slowly fade out into the darkened surroundings.

God why was I such an ass, I didn't mean to be. But as soon as my mouth opened... It was like pure hatred came out.

The look in her eyes, told me I completely hurt her feelings.

I shook my head and chugged the rest of my beer down, before I slowly shut the front door.

"I can't believe I called her a junkie" I sighed, slowly closing my eyes.

"called who a junkie?" my eyes shot up seeing midge standing there, her hands on her hips.

"um.... Nobody" I played it off, hoping I could sneak back out to the guys.

"where's linds?" she side stepped and blocked my path.

"she went out for some air" I lied, pointing to the front door.

"well when you come back out, she better be with you Johnny" she sighed. I didn't know that she was that important. Midge did just meet her for Christ sake.

"yeah, I'll go get her" I rolled my eyes, turning around. I hope to god I can catch up to her.

As I stepped out of the door, I felt midge watch me carefully.

"you should stop treating her like she's Lacey, Johnny." I heard her say, but I ignored her as I slammed the door shut.

What the fuck did Lacey have anything to do with this. I broke up with her three months ago. She was dead to me now anyways.

The way she treated me, was nothing to brag about. She always had some comment, that degraded me in some manner.

I don't even know why we dated in the first place.

I shoved my hands in my pockets, and I speed walked down the streets. She was headed back to the college so, there was only one main road that took her there.

After walking for about ten minutes, thats when I noticed a dark figure walking ahead of me.

I jogged and quickly caught up to her.

"hey, linds...." I gently grabbed her shoulder. I must of scared her, because she jumped clenching her heart.

Shit.... I didn't mean to do that. I watched as she took out one of her ear buds.

"now what do you want?" her eyes glared at me. My heart stinging with pain.

"look, I know you don't want to hear an apology. So I was wondering if we could start over." I smiled at her, hoping she would go along with it.

"fine" she shrugged and turned back around, still walking forward.

"so what are you listening too?" I asked, be genuinely interested.

Her eyes glanced over to me, before she even opened her mouth. Probably making sure, I wasn't fucking with her.

"it's an underground band, their really good." she shrugged and handed me one of her ear buds.

Hoping it wasn't a shitty boy band, I slowly placed it to my ear. When I heard the familiar guitar opening, I started smiling. How the hell did she get this?

Her eyes found my smile, and her lips curled up. Giving me the most beautiful smile in the world.

"good band?" she asked.

"how the hell did you get that song?" I questioned giving her earbud back. To end the rapture, was a song on our cd, we gave out at gigs.

"my cousin went to their concert, and picked me up a cd" she smiled shutting her iPod off.

If only she knew, that she was just hanging out with that band.

"did midge mention that we were in a band?" I raised my eyebrow, as I matched my step with her's.

"yeah she did." her smile dropped, as she said that.

Her frown made my body sick. Why am I feeling like this? Even when I was treating her like shit, it made me sick. But something in me couldn't stop that.

"do you want to watch us play sometime" I wrapped am arm around her shoulder. The warmth coming from her, calming me down.

"I'd love to, but it's probably not a good idea" her frown got more prominent.

"why not? I'm sure you'd love our music" I chuckled.

"it's just better, if I didn't ok" her voice was short. I know she wasn't telling me something. I could just tell.

I wasn't going to push it though. I just got her talking to me. After being a complete dick head to her, I'm surprised she's even letting me near her.

"um.... I think we should go back to Matt's, midge was looking for you" she silently nodded her head, turning around.

We walked back, to Matt's house pretty much in silence. The only thing that would break it was, cars that would pass by.

As we walked, I stole several glances at her. She was playing with her lip ring, which was cute.

"Linds? About earlier.... What are the pills for?" I was thinking about a million possibilities, but none of them made sense to me.

"um.... Asthma" she quickly replied. Her voice sounded unsure, so I looked at her raising my eyebrow.

"asthma?" did she really think I'd believe that one. But she just nodded.

Before I had time to question her, we rounded the corner of Matt's house. Everyone turning to look at us.

"where the fuck have you two been?" Jimmy yelled from his seat. Shit... What do I say???

"the beer was to strong for the little princess over here" I blurted out as I pointed to her.

Her smile that she carried the whole time she walked with me, now vanished. Her eyes closed, before she quickly took a seat by Jimmy, trying to get away from me.

"Johnny shut up" Brian threw a stick at me, making me stumble back.

"yeah what ever, it's not my problem anymore." I grabbed another beer, popping the top off. I just couldn't fight myself, to stop the words from escaping my lips.

I didn't want to say these thing, I knew they hurt her. Something inside of me just, made me continue.

Then it hit me, I was treating her the same way Lacey treated me all the years we were together. As I stood there, my beer in one hand, my eyes looked over to her's.

They were darkened by the night, but I could still see the hurt and hate emanating from them. I knew I just betrayed her..... And I don't know if she was ever going to forgive me again.

But I had to try, even if it took weeks, months, or years. I was going to prove to her, I wasn't always a jerk. That she could maybe trust me one day. So she can tell me how she feels, or what she's taking those pills for.

I smiled for her, but all she did was turn her head focusing on Wednesday, who's as talking about our up coming gig.

I'm the biggest dick head on the planet..... And this was going to take a lot longer then I thought.