Since the start of recorded time there has been around ten billion people born in this world. There's a round 6.8 billion people living on this planet and around 60 million people die every year. That's around 160,000 a day. Yet, we don't remember any of them.
Tragic, I know.
When I was younger an old man told me: " we are born alone and we die alone, nothing else matters as life is just an illusion of temporary happiness" Do I agree with this? I couldn't possibly say as I've only lived 16 years of life. So far I haven't managed to find something that truly matters to me.
But if life is just an illusion, why do we all work so hard to achieve theses goals of so called happiness? Why are we all craving this ideal 'perfect' life?
Society.
Society is to blame. It makes us all want to be 'perfect', because we are told that how we should be. But in the real world there is no such thing as 'perfect'.
I often find myself asking question that I will never learn the answers to.
Sometimes I feel as if I live in two different world. I feel as I'm locked away in my mind and 100 miles away from humanity. Yet I'm only centimetres away from human contact.
I live a boring life of repetition. Maybe it's because I don't like change, or maybe it's because I'm an anti social loser. Who knows?
I have a small group of friends. Well to be honest we are just a group of teens, each with a bestfriend, who sit together at lunch times, so we all look like we have more than one friend. That's the way I see it anyway. In my opinion we care too much. We all worry about what other people think of us more than what we actually think of our selves. Admit it, because you know I'm right. We are just too scared of what society would say about us.
Someone special once said to me: "Most people don't even know what to think of themselves; so why do you care what others think of you".
I loved that special person.
Out of all 6.8 billion people on this planet that one special person made me feel invincible, like I could achieve anything and everything. The taught me: how to be free and how to let go, yet I never knew at the time that I was learning anything. They made me stronger. They showed me how to make myself happy instead of worrying about others.
That's why as I tell you this I'm actually in holding cells waiting for someone to bail me out.
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