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Had enough

Abel PoV

I've had enough to of his sh*t, meeting my old Friend  doesn't make it any better if I had a penny for every sh*tty day I've had I'd own a bank by now.

Today went by very slowly I was in hell and now I have to talk the very person I ran from for years.

Right now I sat in my room tapping my pen in my book , bored as hell.

If he wanted to meet at Tina's he's gonna have to wait.

I looked at my watch.
Half an hour till half four.
What to do?
I ran to my closet pulling out my most black and goth outfit.

He needed to know who I am now and accept it. Otherwise there will be a problem He's even lucky I'm even meeting with him.

I looked in my jewellery box looking for my choker when I came across a picture of me and him. We were laughing, I was on his back , my arms wrapped around him.

I was a different person then. Bright, happy a
Until that happened my parents made a deal with a deal breaker they couldn't give him what he wanted and cursed me. From then and now I feel only 2 emotions anger and depression.

My own personal hell which is why I block every one out and since then I have become violent so violent I hate it. I hate myself. I even became suicidal that's when Lewis comes in he saved me from jumping of a cliff.

My parents wanted to send me to one of those programmes that helps a person that is suicidal but I begged them not to I even threatened to kill myself .

It was then I realised if I had emotions that i wouldn't put my parents through that if I did I would be selfish to put them through that pain.

That was then I changed my look blocked everyone out befriended Lewis and wanted to be feared by everyone it was easier that way.

Nobody would worry to much about me some might hate me and for me that was easier.

One day my parents became fed up with my behaviour and left me all on my own with so money of course the wouldn't be so heartless. I liked to think of it as they wanted to give me some space.

So I moved out of the house sold some furniture and moved into a smaller house.
And since then I've had my ups and downs. Karma.

There are times when I have small flash backs small sparks of emotions. I miss being happy , sad and able to love.

That Sean guy is a pain in the ass no matter how hard I try he won't stop pushing which pisses me off and anger+anger=????
Anybody?
Yes violence
you guessed it.

For some odd reason I can't stop thinking about Sean he's just an ordinary douche isn't he? Then why did I want to get lost in his eyes why does my stomach do flips every time he looks at me?

That's why I have to make him afraid of me and I will.
I've gotten used to not feeling any other emotions and I don't want to change I hate change.

I only change if it's needed or necessary and yes moving and punching him was necessary for me.

The best thing about feeling only anger and depression is that I don't feel lonely.

I looked at my watch again.
4:45
I smirked guess thinking to yourself gives you something to do.

Told ya he would have to wait.
I grabbed my black Handbag with skulls on it and made my way towards my door.

5 mins later I found my self looking at a familiar row of abandoned and dirty houses. This was my short cut to school. Most times.

As I walked I couldn't help the flashback from appearing in my mind. A one I've never forgot or tried to forget until now..........