As we sat down and ate our breakfast, I contemplated on asking if Justin and I did anything. I mean, it was kinda scary not knowing if we took it farther than I remember.
"Hey Justin?"
"Yeah?"
"Did we...ya know...do anything?"
"Yes. We smoked and then we kis-"
"No I mean like sex or whatever"
"Yes"
He said in a very serious tone.
"I actually liked it ya know." Justin confessed.
"Wait are you being real with me?"
"Yes. Wanna do it again?"
"Sure"
To be honest I had no idea what I was doing. But Justin kept telling me I was great so I guess I was doing something right. We didn't take it too far. Like butt sex. We just lazily made out on his bed. I told him I wasn't ready so he said okay and we just made out. After a few minutes Justin said his mouth started hurting so we stopped and watched a movie. We ended up watching Friday Night Lights and then went downstairs for a snack. I had to leave soon so we quickly ate and as we were finishing, my mom pulled up. He kissed me goodbye and I went home.
I decided to text Justin and ask him to go out with me. My parents probably won't care. I ran to my room and sent the message. I thought since Justin and I are best friends it shouldn't be awkward. I waited for about 15 minutes for Justin to answer. I was really anxious about what he would say. I opened my phone and read the message.
Hey bro! So I just wanted to let you know that I don't know if I can be in a relationship right now. I should've told you this but Blake and I were dating for a few months. I broke up with him because I found out he was only with me because I supplied him with free drugs. When I'm ready to be with you I will tell you. I love you emmet <3
Ok first of all bitch, I made an effort. I fucking told you my feelings. How dare you? I spent time. You know what? I'm just gonna chill with some girls for a while and take my mind off of things.
