Curvy Girl (Princeton Love Story) (Rated R)

What is going on? (Chapter 20)

A/N: Hai. I started high school Monday. AATW TOUR IS OVER :( -CRIES- but lets get on to this story guis.

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Ma'Nia's POV

Its starting to get bad again. My depression, I wanna cut so bad but I have to stay strong. I havent eaten in 2 days. I havent seen any of my friends or havent talk to Princeton in 3 days. He probably went on with his life. WAIT! Why am I even worried about him? He cheated on me!!

I moved my ass all the way to LA from New Orleans thinking me and Jacob were gonna be together forever. I was deadass wrong.

Anyways I found a small apartment. On the count that Im a underage 15 year old. I lied to the management and told them I was 19. Im settled in so I guess i'll call Jessica.

-Rings Jessica and she picks up-

Jessica: HEY MA'NIA!!! I MISS YOU ALOT. WE ALL MISS YOU.

Me: Hey Jess! Tell Harmony sorry for throwing shade at her I was salty. I miss you guys too. All except Jacob.

Jessica: Ughhh Youre still mad at Jacob. He said sorry. Everybody makes mistakes.

Me: What are you even saying?!?! He cheated on me WITH HIS EX.

Jessica: All Im saying is....

(Ma'Nia cuts her off)

Me: YOU KNOW WHAT JESSICA. GROW UP! I DONT HAVE TO TAKE THIS. GOODBYE.

-hangs up-

I cant believe Jessica. This makes me sad that even my bestfriend doesnt even take my side. What the fuck. I wanna cut but my razors are at Princeton's house. I need to do this, so I have to go back to get my razors.

I called Ms. Alina so she can come and pick me up from my house to go there. Princeton shouldn't be home he is usually at rehersal. Good. I got dressed in my casual attire. Pink Floyd shirt and a pair of jeans. Ms. Alina is outside. I got in the car.

"Moving back in?" Ms. Alina asked

"No im not I have to get my blade.... I mean my makeup bag." I said putting on a fake smile.

"Blades?! Blades for what?"

"No reason. Dont worry about me.I'm fine."

"Dont get yourself hurt. Dont hurt yourself."

I zoned out. Im not hearing that shit. I don't care about shit anymore. Its me, myself and I. We got to my former home. I saw cars out front but I just ignored that. I came here for one thing and one thing only.

Princeton's POV

I was at the house, laying on my bed listening to Nirvana. All I could think about is Ma'Nia I feel so bad. I heard the front door open, Im guessing its Myles or something. Then I suddenly the door opened. Its her. Ma'Nia!! Im so happy, words cant describe.

"You came back!!! I knew you would come back." I said running up to her with open arms. She swerved me.

"No. You were wrong. Im here to get something."

"Get what?!"

"Dont fucking worry about me. Worry about that slut you were fucking."

She then walked over to the dresser and got a little gold pouch. She dropped it and razors and pills fell out of it.

"You came to get razors?! I thought you were done with cutting?"

She fell to her knees and started crying.

"Its not fucking easy Jacob!!!" she started picking up the razors putting them in her bag.

"Please just come back home. I dont want you to harm yourself. I wanna see you doing good. I dont wanna see you dead."

"YOU DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME JACOB. IM FUCKING OUT OF HERE." she said walking out of the bedroom, down the stairs.

"Oh I dont? I moved you allll the way to California. I saved you."

"Fuck you Jacob." she said walking off getting into the car with Ms. Alina.

I still havent told her about me leaving for tour in like a week. Im gonna be gone for a year. The time isnt right, right now.

Ma'nia POV

I got home and starting cutting. I felt better when I cut, but after I finish I feel depressed and sucidal. Its like these voices in my head make me feel worthless. "Do it" "Kill yourself" "Youre nothing" "Jacob doesnt love you". Sometimes I just want it all to stop. When I was with Jacob I felt better. The voices, sucidal thoughts, everything was gone. I cant to back with him. I have to be strong for myself. I'm all I got.

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A/N: I think after two more chapters Im gonna end this book. ITS GONNA BE A SEQUEL TO IT YASSS. GIVE ME IDEAS PLEASE?