messed up thoughts in my head

story about that sleepover at his place

Everyone always says that you are always capable of loving

But who is there for you when your own heart is flooding

Over with alcohol

But even though you haven't fallen in love yet because you are only 17

Everyone around you wrinkles their nose when you tell them you don't know what love is

Because "that's impossible, stop playing a fool" is a normal excuse

I don't know what love is because all I've felt is "strong attraction"

Which apparently means I'm prude

Because I didn't give myself to you that night when you kissed me like you couldn't breathe

It's been two months but I still remember because god how could I forget

You made me feel like I was important for once but then you left

Because I didn't give myself to you that night when you kissed me like you couldn't breathe

But I am not the one to give myself to a guy who couldn't choose between me and her

And I know that losing virginity does not mean losing anything but still it is a part of me

And you were not the one to give this part to

Because you only needed me when you were needy and that is not okay

And I am happy I didn't give the part of me

To you