Everyone always says that you are always capable of loving
But who is there for you when your own heart is flooding
Over with alcohol
But even though you haven't fallen in love yet because you are only 17
Everyone around you wrinkles their nose when you tell them you don't know what love is
Because "that's impossible, stop playing a fool" is a normal excuse
I don't know what love is because all I've felt is "strong attraction"
Which apparently means I'm prude
Because I didn't give myself to you that night when you kissed me like you couldn't breathe
It's been two months but I still remember because god how could I forget
You made me feel like I was important for once but then you left
Because I didn't give myself to you that night when you kissed me like you couldn't breathe
But I am not the one to give myself to a guy who couldn't choose between me and her
And I know that losing virginity does not mean losing anything but still it is a part of me
And you were not the one to give this part to
Because you only needed me when you were needy and that is not okay
And I am happy I didn't give the part of me
To you
YOU ARE READING
messed up thoughts in my head
Randomi think the title expresses itself quite nicely. this is just a little part of me that i sometimes like to over-share with the internet. god i love our generation.