A Dream Turned Into A Story

the dream

I am with Cyan and we are cuddling and I jump out of the bed and leave the room to go to the kitchen to grab a knife. Cyan is confused about why I got up then goes to find me. I got back to the room hiding the knife from her knowing she would take it off me and said I got to do something and she asks what i say just don't ask and before she could come in the room I hold the knife to my throat because this whole time the voices in my head were say let us take over we have a surprise for u it involves Cyan so back to when I have the knife to my throat I say you will never get to her she comes in and she see what I'm doing then I lose control they take over she tries to take it off of me and I'm trying to take control back and my face has a slight smile to it and then she figures out its not me and try's to help me get control back by kissing me but I stab her with the knife and i say there is your Surprise Jake then I get control back and she is losing a lot of blood and she is slowly dying in my arms and I keep saying I'm sorry while crying and all she says is its okay Jake I know it wasn't really you I carry her to the car and floor it to the hospital with her laying on my lap, telling her to keep her eyes open and keep talking to say something anything I get to the hospital she has lost lots of blood and I'm covered in most of it I carry her in the hospital crying yelling for someone's help I run with her tell them all the information I know about her and they tell me she is okay but there is a possibility that after they stop the bleeding she still might die she has lost lots of blood as i know I'm covered in it I say take some of my blood take all of it if you have to I don't care they do so taking a lot so they tell me to get into a bed but I refuse to leave Cyans side because I know it was My fault she was in there they try to get me away from her bed but I punch the doctor in the face and fall to the ground but they still try to get me in a bed but I get into a chair next to Cyans bed and say I'm staying with her. Her parents walk in and her dad punches me in the face making me fall out of the chair the doctors come in to ask him to leave and they explain to him that if it wasn't for me giving her blood she wouldn't be here and I get up to her to kiss her but her mum slaps me and I dont move and I try to see if she is okay but her mum hits me again and I don't do or say anything to her mum because it is all my fault she is there and they leave to talk to the doctor to see what is wrong with her and ask why I'm covered in blood and during this cyan wakes up and sees my hand on her bed and sees me getting up and how pale I am and ask why I'm like that and I say because I am and she sees the blood all over me and she starts to cry I hold her hand and wipe the tears and saying you have nothing to cry about while I start to cry I lean down to kiss her cheek but I stop and sit down still holding her hand she asks if I'm okay I don't reply and she squeezes my hand and asks again and I say I'm fine without looking into her eyes so she knows something is wrong and she try's to get up i get up to stop her and I fall and the doctors come in and say I got to get in a bed and I say again that I'm not leaving her cyan says why what's happened to him I tell the doctor to not tell her but the doctor tells her anyway what happened and she tell me to get in a bed I say to her I'm not leaving its my fault you are in here she pulls me in to kiss me and says get in a bed Jake I say I'm not leaving you not while I can help it I stay at her bed side till she is Discharged. she stays at mine after. Her wound looked a lot smaller then when it first happens and i hear a knock on the door and It was her dad And he stabs me exactly the way I did to cyan and he says that's for stabbing my daughter you son of a bitch and I don't stop him all I say is I'm sorry for what I did but try to kill me I step back and look at cyan and say I'm sorry she looks confused but then I push the knife deeper in and fall to the ground and then I die to my knowledge anyway then I wake up and I'm in a hospital bed and cyan is laying in the bed with me asleep I groan in pain and disappointment mostly disappointment that I'm not dead she wakes up and looks straight at me and asks me if I want the nurse because I woke up in a sweat and she said that I was restless until she laid with me but still seemed to be in pain I say to her you shouldn't be here I'm not safe to be around she say I know it wasn't you who stabbed me you couldn't help it I look away she kisses me and her mum walks in and grabs her off the bed and I try to get up but her mum stabs me in the shoulder I still get out of bed after pulling out the knife dropping in on the bed trying to get to cyan but her mum punches me and goes to kick me but cyan get in the way and I pass out. I get discharge myself against doctors orders and go home and go to sleep in my bed i wake up and cyan walks in wearing my shirt not sure if she is wearing anything under it and says you are awake and comes over to lays down with me asks how I am feel and checks on my wounds she sits on my lap while doing this how long have u been here I ask and she replies with i haven't left I try to sit up but she doesn't let me and I couldn't help but ask why she cares about me so much even after what id Done to her and all her reply was "because I love you Jake" I ask if her parents know she was here and she doesn't say anything I firmly say her name and she says that to them she ran away and staying with her friend but I think they know I'm with you because of what they did to you with your shoulder. I put my hand over the wound on my shoulder. Cyan asks me to remove my hand so she can have a look at it. Why me though? Why do you love me? Even after what I did? Cyan replies with "I love you because you understand me and someone I can relate to and I love u for who you are." I look away and she cuddles into me. She asks me "I want you to be happy Jake so I think you should be with someone else." She gets up and starts to walk to the door and I get up and hug her from behind and kiss her neck and say "I love you too" she goes quite and moments later she says "why would you love someone like me?" I kiss her neck and say "there is no one like you. You have helped me through so much."