The average life

-age 3 the first memories of your life start coming back to you your playing with toys with your parents it's nice

-age 5 your scared your on your way to your first day to kindergarten your a little excited

-age 7 life isn't as good as it used to be but your still having fun school is harder than it used to be and mommy is sad for some reason

-age 9 summer vacation is soon mom and dad don't talk much for some reason but I don't care it's fun

-age 11 mom and dads divorce was final today I'm still bummed about it school isn't very easy life isn't that fun

-age 13 I found the girl of my dreams today I'm failing a few classes but life is getting better

-age 15 I'm about to take my first drivers test today my girl wants a truck I'd rather just get s car but anything for her, life is kinda fun

-age 17 she broke up with me and on top of that I'm failing 3 classes well at least it's dads weekend life is bad

-age 19 well I have to repeat 12th grade that's gonna suck *sighs* well at least moms getting better, life is well somethin

-age 22 college is great I'm lovin this and good news mom is now cancer free ,life is finally better

-age 24 moms cancer is back *exhales* doctor says she won't make it through the year college is good though and I finally met another girl ,
life is well

-age 26 moms funeral was today, im gonna miss her. My girlfriend says she might be pregnant as well ,life is not good

-age 28 well I took our daughter to the park today and thought about my life and I was seriously thinking about suicide but then I thought about Rachael ever since her mother left us I've been well, life is sad

-age 30 Rachael is off to kindergarten today I remember my first day of school *sighs* I hope mommas up there helping us,life is *exhales*

-age 32 I lost the house today Rachael and I are living in a shelter for now she's got a concerning cough so I'm gonna have to find a way to get money, life is bad

-age 34 Rachael *sighs* was diagnosed with tuberculosis today I don't know what to do about it though we have no money no food no medicine it took me 3 months to get the money for the checkup

-age 36 Rachael died yesterday *whimpers* she didn't even get a proper burial I just left her at the park where we used to go it's what she would want ,life is unbearable

-age 38 I no longer have a will to live I've taken to street drugs they're the only thing that makes me feel good anymore,life is bad

-age 40 I almost died today my whole life flashed before my eyes I can't keep living like this I'm going to look for jobs and try to stay sober, life is getting better

-age 42 my job is boring but gets me through my days I can't sleep some nights I keep seeing Rachael I'm not well I'm saving money for therapy, life is not good

-age 44 I'm getting help with the nightmares and I'm saving for retirement it's not to far away, life is decent

-age 46 I saw Rachael's mother today she asked me how Rachael was I couldn't even talk I just broke down crying. My retirement is 3 years away and I'm saving lots of money, life is better

-age 48 I'm finally over the loss of my daughter and since I'm retired I started online dating I'm going on my first date tomorrow, life is good

-age 50 me and Delilah were talking yesterday and I started thinking about my mistakes and I wondered if I never met my first wife and Rachael was never born what would happen so I thought, I would have finished college and been a rich Doctor like I planned, life is good

-age 52 Delilah had a stroke 2 weeks ago and died I haven't been this sad since Rachael *sighs* well u know I just lay in bed and eat my chest kinda hurts though it's probably just heart burn, life is cruel

he died 2 weeks after this entry of a heart attack he was found 6 days after he died, he had no one to cry for him no one to care for him, strange how such a caring man could die like this it just shows life is cruel, unfair, short, but you can also make it better live with this knowledge be strong