"Where am I?" I asked confused, this wasn't the usual dream.
"Well since you asked" a all to familiar cryptic voice answered sarcastically. "You're in my world"
I took a glimpse around and saw nothing but darkness that surrounded me.
"what an interesting world you have.." I responded sarcastically as well. "So why am I here? This is not the usual place you send me too"
He laughed maniacally. "I know, but I'm sure you remember this."
Just then the footing that I had dropped and I was free falling through the darkness.
"what the fuck?!"
Laugher responded through the darkness I couldn't see where it came from.
As i dropped and the wind hit me I started to see images, which vaguely resembled memories.
And so my tormented past haunted me every foot I dropped, each memory of her crashed into me like a wave of bricks. Seeing the hurt and sadness in her eyes as I told her I didn't want to be with her. Seeing her crying when I rejected the love she tried to offer me.
"forgive me.." I whispered. As I felt the all to familiar resentment I had for myself.
"I deserve this.."
He dropped me into a memory, a memory of her and I. We were listening to music, my music which she teased me about constantly.
I was singing the all to familiar words to her as we cuddled on her bed, with her black light on, because she was afraid of the darkness.
"The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath."
She laughed at me. "You're so cheesy"
I had a huge grin, and kept singing.
"And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above."
As I watched this memory unfold, My heart felt as if it was shredding into a million pieces.
She was my everything, why did I reject her...
"I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life."
"I feel so safe with you.." she told me.
I watched as i pulled away from her and sat up, she gave me a puzzled look and faced me " what's wrong?"
I just stared at her as the song kept playing.
'And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive and not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above'
I remember feeling disgusted, and to this day I don't know why.
'And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said'
I watched as I got up from the bed and told her I needed to go to the bathroom and left the room.
She sat there with this hurt expression, and stared at the door.
"She was contemplating if she should just give up on you" the cryptic voice said. "She felt used." he laughed and dropped me from the dream.
He dropped me into another dream.
"this is where she realized, you don't care about her."
Streamers, black lights, a counter full of alcohol. People laughing and having a good time.
"Happy birthday!" everybody cheered.
"Her birthday?" I asked.
"Yes, she knew what you did." he replied. "No matter how drunk she got, she saw you and remembered everything." he laughed devilishly.
Three am came around, and I saw what happened, as I drunkenly kissed her cousin, We were on the floor, her body on top me as she slowly grinded me. "want to do a little more experimenting?" she said suductivily. "Everyone is either outside or passed out."
She bit my neck " bathroom baby?"
I watched in horror as I seen her standing in the kitchen watching us head towards the bathroom.
" she was looking for you." the cryptic voice snickered.
"why are you doing this to me?"
"what do you me mean?" he snickered some more " this is your dream baby." he laughed.
"then why are you here?!"
"Watching." more laughter came from the darkness.
"I don't want to watch this anymore. Please just take me away.."
"No" came the reply.
"Let me wake up!"
Laughter.
"leave me alone." I screamed.
More laughter.
" I don't want to see this, I know what I did wrong, you don't have to show me anymore!"
Silence.
As the dream slowly resolved to nothing. I awoke in my bed covered in sweat.
"Oh but I do." the cryptic voice replied.
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Song: I'll be Edwin McCain
(A/N: just a short story written from my iPod
Sorry about the errors.)
