part 17: the pregnancy
we sat there for a couple of hours in complete silence until Prince said something.
"What are we going to tell our parents?"
"Prince i dont even wanna thhink bout that right now." I said rubbing my belly.
"There might be a living thing inside of you and you wont tell your dad? thats some shit." He said.
"Its not a thing its my baby damn it!!!! and i cant tell him because, well you havent seen the crazy side of my dad. I just cant tell him. Not yet." I said walking over to the bed wrapping myself in the covers. Prince layed next to me and wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my belly.
"I guess we will get through this the best way we can." He said as I fell asleep in his arms.
8 months later
I was awoken by a upset stomach and kicking almost every night. i hate throwing up. its been 8 months since ive been pregnant. We finally told my dad. even though he was mad af he still said he would support us. i looked in the mirror. i looked terrible. i got in the shower and got dressed and went off to school.
when i got there Erica ran over.
"Boo boo you ok?" She said hugging me. I swear this girl is the best. im glad i got her.
"Yea love im cool. just cant believe this is happening." I said starring down and feeling my little baby kicking me.
"What you having?" she asked.
"A girl." I said smiling.
"Awwwwwwwww. imma be the God mommy right."
"Yes Erica." I said laughing. i hope this pregnancy goes good.
1 month later
im in a hospital bed and in sooo much pain that i cant take it. they kept giving me stuff for the pain but it wasnt working. now i regret having sex. im only 17!!!!
after 3 hours of pushing and squeezing Prince and my dads hands our little baby girl was born. but when i pushed her out she wasnt crying and the cord was wrapped around her neck. the doctors cut it off but said her lungs and heart arent strong enough and they dont know if she would make it. Prince tried to calm me down but i wanted my baby. i wanted her to be ok. I dont think I could live if something is wrong with her...
