compulsion

Desperation

Eloise's p.o.v
*Storms into her room and slams the door.
Fuck she sighs
Why am I not good enough?
Is there something wrong with me?
Obviously there's something wrong with you, taking drugs isn't the best coping mechanism. She thinks.
FUCK .
Maybe if I take it all the pain will go away.
My mother won't have to deal with me anymore. She won't be sad anyways she'll just put on an act for her friends.
I wonder what they'll say? She thought.
"Loving daughter , Happy teenager, we don't know where we went wrong. The light of my life and love of my heart oh how we'll miss our dear Eloise"
A Load of crap is what that is.
Everything is just an act for them, they don't really care what happens to me as long as they're still rich and popular.
At least i won't be suffering anymore.
*grabs her pipe
Goodbye world.
*Lights up