Just a bit to say before the story begins. Each book will represent 6 months or one year. (depending on how many chapters there will be). This first book is mainly about my sophomore experience (though it actually starts a few weeks before school), but will include my past; especially last year. Everyone's names will be changed, including my own.
The following story is based on true events:
As I lay on my rough living room couch, all darkness consumes my inner most being as I try and rest my eyes for just a few seconds. My heart holds the emptiness that I now recognize as a broken heart. I decide once again that sleep is against me, and I open my big, chocolate orbs. I glance towards the clock and a loud sigh escapes my lips when I notice the time. It's about three o' clock in the morning, and once more I realize that I won't be sleeping another night.
As I stare at the ceiling, I begin thinking about what could've gone wrong between us. Why would Charlie dump me? Charlie told me that he loved me countless times and I returned the favor. His beautiful green eyes would always look towards me with the deepest love and affection that I've ever seen. Charlie would always say, "Bridget, I'm so in love with you." The way he kissed and loved me was so....magical. As my thoughts surrounded around the almost junior, I feel my eyes become extremely heavy. Sleep finally decides to take over me, as all of my lonely thoughts slowly die out.
I feel my eyes flutter hours later as I take in my surroundings after I lift the small eye mask above my head. I stare at the clock once more to read "9:00" plastered in glowing green letters. No one is awake in our small, pale pink living room. The other tan love seat is empty, and the brown table set with chairs holds no people. Suddenly, I hear a small noise randomly boom from the air. I pick up my yellow IPod touch, and my small lips form into a smile at the message. It's from one of my closest friends Megan. She sent me a picture of the flat clay art we made the last time I saw her. It read "Keep holding on <3"
Megan is one of the busiest friends I have, but also one of the sweetest and prettiest. Megan has been comforting me, and just being there for me in general since Charlie dumped me. She's been by my side one hundred percent of the time, and making me forget him and have good times with her and her older brother Antonio. She's a graceful ballerina and a softball player. Her long, golden, curly locks are much past her shoulders and her eyes are a stunning bright blue that I very much envy. She is like a sister to me, since we've been friends for the past five years.
As I continue to stare at Megan's message, my thoughts around Charlie begin to change. Is he even worth it? Since he's broken up with me, every person who I tell about our previous relationship says that I could do much better looks and personality wise. What do they mean by that? Have I been so lost in our love that I didn't even bother to think about those things? Either way, I'm mostly over the fact that we've been together. It's been almost a month, yet once in a while I feel an eternal pain and heartache that seems to never escape me.
Perhaps it's because of what he knows about me. The fact that at one point in my life I became so alone, so unhappy that it led to preform an unholy act to which makes me, to this day, shudder in disgust. The temptation of said act is so high as of lately, I fear to even be alone. It could be too that he knows of the almost passing of my mother in the horrible car accident that occurred when I was only eleven. Those times were rough, and to this day my mother still struggles to even be alive. He also knows that I've been bullied since I was eight years old. I was bullied the previous year, but thankfully the Lord has been watching over me since the girl who led people to bully me moved away over the summer.
I regret doing things with him and telling him anything, but I still feel somewhere inside of me that maybe someday we can be friends. Charlie actually broke up with me a little more than a month ago, but he was bothered about how I feel and how I'm doing with everything. For the most part, his words made things worse and much more confusing then it was before he started talking to me once more. It's good that he's finally just let me live without him, and I truly am beginning to feel better. However, it also makes me unhappy to not talk to him at all. For some reason, I don't think we ended how I ever imagined us ending. Quite honestly, many people said they could see me and Charlie be together for most of high school at least. It's strange how things work out in life.
Not only has Megan been by my side entirely, but two other girls have been as well. The girls, Hilary and Monica, attend the high school I go to, but have completely opposite personalities from each other. Hilary is more towards the sweeter side, with rare golden eyes and brown curly hair that reaches her middle back. She and I speak the most random conversations, but we have so much in common we actually think we're related somehow. I truly enjoy her overall company, and her kind words. Monica has more of a sarcastic persona, but protects me as if she's my older sister. She has long, curly blonde hair and blue-green eyes. Her attitude is more of a strong-willed type, and never gives up too easily on anything. She has actually been determined to find me a new boyfriend already, simply because she introduced me to Charlie.
One more person has been helping me, though I barely know her. Her name is Nicole, and I met her over an internet website. She has been helping me make tough decisions, as she is my personal councilor, and she is about four years older then me. We've been talking since Charlie broke up with me, and she is very kind and a great listener. I've only seen a few pictures of her, but let's just say she's very beautiful.
As I begin to stand up and walk around aimlessly throughout my living room as I usual do, I begin to sing a sad love song. Many people say I have a great voice, though I'm not too sure since I've only shared my voice with so many people. To me, it's a bit low for a girl, but to others, it's decently high. I love singing and listening to music. It helps me escape my troubles and worries from the world for as long as I can. I pause in the middle of the song.
"I hate feeling this way," I groan uncomfortably out loud.
I begin thinking about Mary. Mary was Charlie's first girlfriend, though he always told me he never considered them together. She has green-yellow eyes and short, highlighted brown hair with, no offense, weird looking teeth. Mary and I have never actually met in person before, though we go to the same school, but she's going to be a senior this year. He always said that I was his first real girlfriend. Mary, for some reason, has been very kind to me since Charlie broke up with me. At first, I found her incredibly annoying, spelling mistakes and all. But now, I find her as a pretty decent friend. She never kissed or hugged Charlie, as I was his first kiss and he was mine, but they "dated" for about a month. Charlie and I were together for about four months.
Mary has always acted strange about Charlie. One thing I can't stop thinking about is how Mary told off my ex-boyfriend. Charlie, from what I hear from her, always puts her down and makes her feel horrible about herself. So Mary got sick of it and told Charlie how she felt. She thinks that they'll never speak to each other ever again. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with Charlie, because I did love him as a best friend too. And also, since I haven't spoken to him in almost a week, he's told me that he needs to "clear his head and think about how he feels about me."
Putting all of the drama aside, I think this year might be different then last year. I might not get bullied, I might actually have more then just a few friends, and I might date a guy that truly loves and cares for me for longer then a few months. I'll keep some of my old friends, but bring in the new ones. I hope that maybe this year, I'll finally find a place where I belong in this strange high school ordeal. I'm not even sure what exactly the future holds for me. But maybe, just maybe, I can turn my life around this year as a wise fool.
So there it is! The more main characters have been introduced and you know there will be more side characters eventually. Let me know what you think :).
