CAT 1: Played

Prologue

Jade

"I'm sorry Jade, pero ayoko na." he turned and walked away, na parang wala lang ang lahat sa kanya, like everything was just part of my imagination. My heart was so heavy, it felt like it was pounded with a hammer. My eyes were getting teary, and one by one tears fell from my face. I know he is bad and all, but I chose to disregard all his flaws. I know he's a Player, but I thought he would change for me. Kasi akala ko MAHAL niya ko. Pero tama sila, walang akalang tama. I ignored my friend's warnings but then again I was wrong. I never loved anyone like this before. Actually, NO, I never loved anyone before. He is my first love. And it already broke me BAD. My eyes are flooded with tears. Knowing that, I can trust no one. That the first person I ever trusted and gave my all have betrayed me. He lied to me,he cheated on me. I felt like rubbish being kicked around. I was worthless. I AM NOTHING.

I didn't know what to do. I was broken. Left to die on my own. I wanted to scream, but I couldn't. People will think that I'm crazy. Heck it's not like everyday you give your heart to someone and they'll just step on it and crush it. How could I be so blind? Blinded by those hypnotic eyes of his, that killer smile. The way he spoke, the way he said all those sweet words, the way he fooled and lied to me. It was tantalizing , and it has left me paralyzed. I'm standing here with nothing. I was humiliated.

I had to compose my self. Put myself back to reality. So I breathed, I cleared my thoughts. I had to act like nothing has happened. I dont wanna seem weak. I was still shaky, pero I have to go to class. I can be strong, FOR NOW. But, what will my friends say? I am a mockery. I'm stupid. I'm lost.

As I was walking in the hallway, I kept thinking about all his lies and everything wrong he did. Nagbulag bulagan lang ako. Nagpakatanga ako para sa kanya. But I have to suck it in, it was my fault. And I take full responsibility.

Passing by his locker, nandoon siya. And a girl approached him, " Babe, Happy 1st Monthsary." sabi nito. The girl stared right back at me, giving a devilish smirk. I was waiting for him to look at me pero hindi siya lumingon. My tears were falling. The pain was too much to bear, I can't contain it anymore. I felt stupid. I've always felt that he as cheating on me. I was just afraid to see the truth.

"Come on Jade." iniharap ako ni Samantha sa kanya at niyakap ako ng mahigpit. "Staring won't help you, believe me. It's okay to cry, for now." She tightened her hug. And I just cried and cried. "Sam, ang sakit." my tears kept falling. " I know Jade, I know. "

Samantha is my bestfriend, and we treat each other like sisters. Samantha had this natural Brazilian tan, long black semi curly hair, and beautiful dark brown eyes. We've been bestfriends since we were little. She never left my side. And she was the first one to say na I should stay away from him. Pero hindi ako nakinig. I was so naive. She was the last person that I thought would come to comfort me kasi we fought about my relationship a few weeks back.

She loosened her hug and pulled away, she stared deeply into my eyes. " See what I was warning you about? Hindi ka kasi nakikinig eh. " there was an unusual humor in her voice, I might have heard her chuckle a little. "Dry your tears Dummy. Pinagtitinginan ka na ng mga chismosa. " then she let out a little laugh, maybe because she found it pathetic that I was crying over a worthless jerk. Nakakainis siya. Pinagtatwanan niya ako! Eh ako na nga itong nasaktan! Pero, what the hell, atleast she is still comforting me. May point din naman kasi siya eh. She warned me nga naman. I have to face the truth. I composed myself and took a deep breathe.

"Thank you Sammy, for everything." she just smiled at me , hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at naglakad kami papunta sa classes namin .I thought everything was gonna get better after that, pero hindi pa pala. I started to learn all my Ex- boyfriend's secrets. After hearing about our so called break up, his friends approached me feeling guilty, dahil sinindak sila ni Sam. I learned na everything was just a bet. I still couldn't believe na kahit konting pagmamahal di niya naibigay sakin. It hurts so bad. And right there I cried again. Even though hindi pa ganoon katagal ang relationship namin, what the hell? He is my first love. I gave my heart to a soul less man. How dare he?

Yes maybe he courted me for sometime, but I didn't realize it was his game plan. And I was like the trophy he won, but soon disregarded.

I have never loved anyone, but then again I've never felt this angry before. There is something inside me, I feel it. It's a sick feeling. I feel hatred, anger, I feel like I can hit someone right now. There's this sick feeling inside me, my heart, its withering away. The pain makes it numb. I don't want to be the good girl anymore.
I won't let anyone get my guard down. It won't be easy, but I will. I will change. Its just a matter of being on top.