Me without You

Never Take No For An Answer

Matthews P.O.V

I was laying in my bed one night talking to my friends. I was bored and I was looking to talk to some new people. Mostly because I wanted to annoy them. I was searching the App Store to find a new app to annoy people and I came across this app called kik. I downloaded it and I just started to annoy some random people who I didn't even know.

But then I came across this one girl. Riley. I still remember how my stomach just turned when I saw her picture I just thought she was so beautiful. I wanted to just annoy people at first but when I saw her all I wanted to do was talk to her normally. I remember messaging her just saying 'hey' because I didn't know anything else to say. When she replied I remember just laying back in my bed and this stupid grin just came across my face and I didn't know why. Not until now.

Me and Riley talked for the next couple weeks every single day pretty much non stop even while she was at school in her lessons I remember she told me she was hiding her phone in her pencil case just so she could message me. I remember talking to her for hours on end and I always had a smile on my face because she was one of the funniest girls I had ever spoke too.

I knew I always fancied her but then there was a night. Where it became clear to me that I liked her a lot more then I was even telling myself. And I know this is going to sound stupid to a lot of people but she told me a story about how she nearly burned her house down. I remember her saying how she had to fan her house down for over and hour and then she was upset because she used half a bottle of her favourite Lynx to stop her mum from smelling what she had done.

I remember laughing for hours because she wouldn't stop moaning about how much her arms were aching because she was 'fanning the kitchen with a pillow and they were just so heavy'. I know this probably sounds stupid to a lot of people but I just found it hilarious and I knew at that moment that I liked her more then I thought I did. I thought everything was going amazingly. Until a few days later when I got the worst news I could think of. Riley had a boyfriend.

I remember the moment I found out. We were talking on kik and she was at school and I said we could just talk when she got home. I remember seeing her message pop up on my phone but her name on kik had changed. She had changed her name to 'Riley and nick'. My heart sunk. I was absolutely devastated. This girl who I had fallen so hard for had been hiding the fact that she had a boyfriend.

I confronted her and I asked her straight up does she have a boyfriend. She said 'yes'. I could just feel my heart breaking, my stomach was turning I thought I was going to be sick. So I said to her "so whatever this thing is between me and you is just nothing then?" And she just said "yes I'm sorry I should of told you".

At that point I thought I was going to give up on me and Riley. I mean we hadn't been talking for to long so I thought I could quite easily walk away from her and not even think twice. But I couldn't. And to this day I don't know why there was just something about that girl that kept dragging me back in. And I just couldn't let her go.

I tried going on as if everything was fine for the next couple days but it was so hard. I liked her so much and I knew she liked me too but there was nothing I could do. But in the end I couldn't take it anymore I just had to tell her. I had to tell her how I felt. How would she react? Would she run away or would she run right into my arms?