Me without You

Never take no for an answer

This was it.
The moment I had been thinking about ever since I met Riley. I was finally going to find out if she felt the same feelings for me as I had for her.

She didn't. At least that's what she said. She said she was sorry but right now she was with her boyfriend and she couldn't leave him for someone who she barely knew. Just as I was about to give up on us she slipped up.

She said 'I think I love nick'. Now to most people that would sound like they had no chance. But for me if she didn't want to be anything with me she would of told me that she was in love with him. But she didn't. She said she thinks she did. And I knew from that moment on that she didn't want to hurt me and that is why she didn't say she loved him because she was having second thoughts about him.

Now I know what you're thinking. How could things be normal after I told her that I liked her and she didn't tell me she liked me back. But I didn't care. I was just happy to still have her in my life and I wasn't going to do anything to risk losing her.

I thought I could hide my feelings. My emotions. But I couldn't. I had to tell her. I had to tell her the one thing in my life that I've never trusted anyone with but I just knew that I could trust this girl with even my biggest secret.

I told her that when I was young my sisters had died. 2 sisters. It was the most upset I've ever been in my life. I've never talked about it before and it was the first time I had even thought about it in over 10 years. She was so amazing. She was there for me, she comforted me and she made everything feel okay.

And then she said to me 'babe everything is gonna be okay don't be upset'.
Now at the time I didn't really realise what she said and it wasn't until the following morning until I was reading over our messages again when I saw it. She had called me babe. I felt so happy. I knew it all along. She liked me. Riley actually liked me.

And that was when I had to get a real answer from her. I couldn't just pretend to just be friends anymore. I had fallen for her and I needed her to know just how much I liked her. I asked her I said 'Riley do you actually like me as more then just a friend? I need to know because I can't just have you as a friend anymore and I'm fed up of us pretending that this is nothing because it's not and we both know it's not'.

'Matthew I do like you and you know I do'. She had finally said it. I remember I was laying in bed and I just couldn't help but smile. I had that stupid grin back on my face. The same grin I had the very first time I saw her. 'But I can't leave my boyfriend for you. Not right now'. I didn't care that she said that. I knew we would be together soon I just had to wait until she could admit it to herself as well. And I knew she would be worth the wait.

The next couple days were back to normal. Except a little bit better then normal. We were saying we liked each other. I was starting to see her open up to me about how she felt and I knew it was only a matter of time before we got together.
23rd September 2015. The date I couldn't take it anymore. I had to make her mine. I had to ask her I couldn't hold it any longer. 'Riley we can't keep going on like this. You need to choose. Who do you like more me.... Or him?'