14 February
Valentines Day and I got dumped.
Well I wasn't really dumped .
I had to let him go.
"my feelings are fading "
one last look to the face of the guy I love so much .
I turned around and walked away forever.
I wondered if it was the right thing to do .
I love him yet I let him go .
one thing was on my mind the whole time .
how would I continue life without him ?
17 February
7.23am
Walking the path we've always taken together to school .
It feels weird that I have no arm to grab on .
I woke up this morning with no morning text .
I pondered how was your morning .
Probably enjoying your freedom or crying.
But I know you , you don't show emotions around people even your family.
Anyways why should I bother? I'm not part of your life anymore.
12.51pm
Im supposed to be listening to the lecture but my mind wandered off .
Everyone's asking how am I .
I told them everything's gonna be fine .
But will it ever be ?
I felt my heart breaking while copying notes.
My eyes watered when I was trying to solve a chemistry question .
The lesson we had in maths today , was your favourite topic.
You're still everywhere .
2.17pm
13 minutes more until school ends .
We had English essay to do . The lecturer said we're free to choose our own topic.
Love ,
How do people fall out of love easily?
I would like to discuss this issue .
Perhaps you can be my reference on this .
3.35pm
On my way home , inside the bus . I saw our friend .
Does he know about what happened to us ?
What do I tell him if he asks how are you ?
He's coming near me .
He asked how are you . I said you're fine and well .
I told him you got the course you wanted .
He's happy for you . He said .
"but we're not together anymore" even these words sounds foreign to me .
Shocked . Silence . And a pat on my shoulder .
"It's his fault"
Was it really yours ?
9.43pm
I've done all that I can to put you out of my mind .
Right now , I'm lying at my bed .
It's warm .
I guess your heat stayed .
But why cant you be the same .
I survived today .
But I'll shed tears later .
For the longing I have for you .
And for the broken heart of a lost girl .
A/N: My first time (yaaayy!!!) so I tried a short one first . Your comments will be greatly appreciated . Thanks xoxo :)
