Anxiety || fierro

/cuatro/

Quierida Aldonza,

I haven't written you in about a month, and even that amount of time has done nothing to make me forget you. I still have your kisses glued to my lips, and the warmth of your hands on my skin. So many things have changed this month, but my undying love for you remains in my heart. I'd be lying if I said I don't want it to. I still have hope that you'll return to me.

Soon after Vergara suggested I take the season off for 'compelling reasons' which he had convinced the Liga MX federation of granting their permission, I was benched by Almeyda. I couldn't really blame the man; he had seemed to notice the shit job I was doing on the pitch. He had given me the time, and the patience--in the beginning-- but Chivas was sinking and we needed quick results. Omar was getting frustrated with me as well, and being team captain, the coach always keeps them in mind when making important decisions.

I had once been Omar's top assisting man last season. Today I had no assists, and no goals. I was more worthless on the pitch to them than a sac of potatoes. 

Though I tried so hard, I just couldn't find my way out of that rut i was in. At practice, Omar was very patient and supportive, as well as my other team mates. But in the adrenaline of the game, team captain Omar Bravo always found himself yelling at me for wasting a perfectly good opportunity. 

Its almost like you salted us in bad luck when you left.

In the end he chose to bench me.

It doesn't make me happy at all. But maybe now I'll put in more effort to earn my way back into the starting eleven. But really...who would pick little Carlos Fierro over star players like Gullit Pena or Conjito Brizuela? Competing with them for a place on the team would be anything but simple.

I just wish I had you here to support me like you used to. With your love and support, I could do anything.

Sincerely,

Carlos

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just an update for this fic because i know i havent updated in a long long time. so now we see fierrito losing everything he loves in life, slowly and painfully. but where is aldonza? where did she go? only i know. lol

so i hope you're liking the updates. thank you so much for reading. im going to try to update this quicker bc i didn't mean for this story to drag on so long. and i really want to post the next one in the series, which will be about walter kannemann from club atlas. another half argentine half german like my baby julio furch.

have a great start of the week!

-clary xx