21/3/2016
Dear Dearest Dairy,
I never thought I would write a diary...I didn't like them but here I am now I figured a diary would help me straighten some things out with myself.
I've been thinking about him again he invades my thoughts almost every second , everything reminds me of him: names , songs...it doesn't help that he isn't talking to me...it hurts, I feel like not talking to him is driving me crazy. I think about him even more now I feel like I have done something wrong...yet he said I haven't .
Do I love him? It could just be merely infatuation. I've "liked" him for almost a year now...I miss the attention he used to give me i-i miss when we were together.
I never really thought about boys, I never did actually that changed when he started dating her.
I felt jealous of her I still do Why?
Well because they had a longer "relationship" then we did every time we tried something ruined it :(
Why am I just talking about him? BECAUSE HE IS ALL I THINK ABOUT
Maybe I do love him...I don't know!
I miss when I could actually talk to him about this.....it felt so right when could say it.
What am I talking about I know i do...I just don't want to admit it to myself , I feel like I am to young to love someone like that :/
Plus he's a few (A FEW) older than me!!!
I long to be in his presence I would be so happy if he held my hand or hugged me heh...(that's not happening LOL)
Also he thinks I'm cute!!!! He also said he likes me....I hope he really does.
I guess that's all for now...
I love him....
