Behind The Walls

C1:Senior School Starts

A/N-Just letting all you peeps know that c1 or c45 means chapter_ like what ever chapter number it is..So this is my first book and I'm not sure how well I'll write or how often I'll update cause of school and everything.So if I do get anyone that reads this book please I would appreciate it if you let me know how I was writing like how well I was writing.Also tell me any suggestion you have for books or anything! Thanks!

Deans P.O.V
Friday February 22nd 2011
Dear diary,
I know that this is really a girly thing but I feel like I just need to get all of my emotions out.Not necessarily on anyone or anything because I'm really I'm actually really great full for what I have but my dad beat me again today and he doesn't even know about my sexuality.So I'm not sure if I really want to tell him but really that's the least of my worries at the moment...I have 20 bruises all over my body and 35 cuts on my arms so I have to wear a jumper at school to cover them.Im afraid to admit it but I also have to wear make-up to cover the bruises......make-up! Really I felt like I was going to pass out today because of the amount of time he hit me...Anyway I really don't want to talk about that because it takes me back to when I was little and how great it was then and how nice my mum and dad were.Oh a new boy joined the school today called Bray Wyatt and he looks really tough.He tried talking to be but I just ran off because he was hanging around with Josh,Jazz,Mia,Finn and Flynn and they all bully me.I know,I know it's a bit weird that girls bully me,well they don't really bully me they just walk around with the boys and tease me,they don't physically bully me.My main bully though is Josh,he beats me at least five times a day and none of the teachers know it.They count him as a 'Golden child' but really he SUCKS Balls!!!.So there would be no point standing up for myself because no one would believe me.Also I have never stood up to anyone before because I don't have the strength to,I'm a loser and a loner....I want a friend but I don't want to be selfish.

Anyway I guess I'll go now....Bye?

I sigh as I close the 'diary' slowly and push it to the back of under my bed.I stand up from my bed as it squeaks and walk down the stairs in pain.I hear a door slam as I flinch and jump back hitting my ankle on the stairs and falling down them.I look up to see dad looking down at me.Great I think as I know what is coming my way..."Oh just in time" he speaks and grabs me by my brown locks."I get dragged back up the stairs by my hair groaning in pain but not fighting back because I know that will just make the punishment worse.Even though there shouldn't be a punishment because I did nothing my dad still says that I'm a punishment for being born...I'm interrupted by my thoughts when I feel something crushing on my ribs as I notice that he has just thrown a table at me.I Yelp in pain and roll over on my back attempting to get up.That fails though because I just get a beer bottle thrown at my back.That's when I know it's going to be bad because I know he's drunk and even though mum punishes me she sometimes even has to stop him before she knows that they will be caught by the cops and be sent to jail.Some day I'm going to be the person that sends them there because I'm going to be a WWE superstar like the Undertaker! He is my role-model but I know I would never see him in person.Ill be able to stand up to Josh and punch him square in the face and maybe I'll even has friends....even one friend is fine with me,as long as they are a REAL friend and stick around...What I see next actually REALLY shocks me out of my thoughts.

Ok peeps so sorry for the short chapter but I'll be updating soon I just need to go to the shops so I might update when I get back! Anyway did you think the first chapter was alright?? I tried to make it interesting but I may have failed! Sorry if I did let me know in the comments please 🤗