In Love With A Thug

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Carter
"I'm sorry please don't please"I pleaded as Langston swung his hand up and smacked me

I yelled and screamed as he punched and kicked me while I'm pregnant with our daughter.
He didn't care he raped me and the consequence was pregnancy at 17.

He was 25 that kidnapped me and made me lose 2 children so far.

I was so tired of the abuse he kidnapped and beat me till I finally said

I would give him a baby or relationship.

And it so happened to be both,my parents died in a house fire that he caused and I want to kill him for that but he leaves me too weak to fight back.

I don't know why I deserve this but I have to escape I know that I won't have a family because all these miscarriages I had.

I was the girl that would fight everyday but this tragic event ruined my life,I know no one would want to be with me and I have to accept it.

As Langston was screaming around the house,I grabbed my things and snuck out the back door that he always had blocked.

I ran down the street and to my friend's house Allie and knocked on the door,she seen me and hurried me in the house to see her brother and parents.

They were my second family so they were looking for me,I guess they couldn't find me but never gave up.

They ran to me to see the bruises and cuts,I was so insecure about my body but now it's to the extreme.

They drove me to the hospital and they pronounced my daughter dead and said after my body heal they would see if my body could take another kid.

I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up I seen I was in Allie's guest room,I climbed out of the bed and my body was sore.

I went to the bathroom,I want to have my own hustle not live in someone else's house and live off what they work hard for.

By the way,my name is Carter Promise Logan. I'm 17 years old and my family died in a house fire. I'm ugly and don't deserve a life. I don't have friends except Camryn,Jordyn,Allie,Jodi,and Shay. 

I am insecure about my body and with my brother Caden we sold drugs sometimes to pay bills and survive.

It was really him he made me do the small things like packaging,my mom and dad hated it but it was putting food on the table and clothes on our back so they couldn't really complain.

I went to Compton High the most ghettoist school in California,I got suspended like 10 times in a month.

Soon as I went missing every nigga or bitch that said I was they friend but they didn't care enough to look for me or check on my family.

I am not going back to that school until I'm completely healed and every bitch or nigga getting it,It's going to be a new disease around here called Carter's hand come near me and you going to catch them bitches.

Carter in mm