I DEDICATE THIS TO SHEREEN WhyNOTme
see i always told you i'll write something steamy for you lol
BURN BABE BURN!!!!
Alone in the park, well I'm not alone exactly but it sure feels like it. Sitting on the bench next to me is a blond haired blue eyed beauty. And here I am the monster that's about to crush her. I take deep calming breaths getting ready to do the unthinkable. Its now or never, I turn to face her.
"Jace Planner are you in there?" Katie knocked on the side of my head.
"Yeah um... listen, Katie I have some thing to tell you"
She nods okay.
"Katie I... I love you but... please just don't hate me okay." I sighed rubbing my eyes. Why did I agree to this? She's my best friend, my only friend. What would she say when I tell her why, will she hate me? Forgive me?
"What do you mean Jace?" she stared up at me confused.
I sigh, now or never. If she hates me then... "I'm gay" I close my eyes. I can't look at her I don't want to know any more, I take it back! The eerie silence that seemed to be crushing me was broken by a high pitched giggle. Confused I opened my eyes to come face to face with Katie's smiling face.
"Oh I know Jacey. And I know that you have the hots for my twin brother." Her sky blue eyes twinkling with laughter.
Stunned I stood there staring at Katie. How did she know? It's not possible! Heck I even got the straight award! Sadly our school is completely homophobic. Katie's happy face slowly starts to crumble.
"Jace we've been friends since the day we were born. And when you're friends with someone for sixteen years you learn a lot about them." She paused giving me a hard stare "You have to tell him or I will"
"No! I can't! Call me a wimp or, call me whatever you want but please don't tell him. I can't handle Ethan hating me. I'll tell him when I'm ready" being in love with someone sucks, but knowing that they will never love you back hurts more.
"No Jace, you're going to tell him tomorrow. How long have you had this crush?"
Tomorrow? What? No I can't! He'll hate me! I'm not ready! But if I tell Katie this she will chop my balls of for sure. See Katie here is a really pushy person and she will go to any lengths to get what she wants. "Years" I whisper finally.
"Tell him or I will" Katie stood up and left me here alone with my conflicted thoughts.
Tomorrow came too soon. All day Katie kept giving me the do-it-now-eyes. I managed to avoid Ethan all day but now Katie had corner Ethan and I behind the school's sport shed. The bell for lunch had gone long ago and only fifteen minutes of school were left. Right now I am literally shaking in my boots.
"Ethan, Jace has something he wants to tell you." And with that Katie left us alone.
Gee thanks for the support. I look over to Ethan Hearts the guy I have been crushing on since I was twelve and he fourteen. God I can't do this he's going to hate me! Ethan is to damn hot for his own good. He is so hot the sun would come out in the middle of a storm if he walks out side. He flicks his ear length brown hair away from his sea green eyes and raises an eyebrow.
"Ethan I-I'm g-gay" I swallowed thickly and look to the ground. "B-but t-that's not al-all... Ethan I-I love you" I want to run I can't stand here I got to go. I need to run, but fear has taken my legs hostage and wont give them back. I stood waiting for Ethan to do something, minutes tick by and no reply. Slowly I raise my head to see that Ethan had turned his back on me. "Ethan... I-" I reached a hand out to comfort him. But he cuts me off and moves away from me.
