If I Waved?..

Just Going

Days past.. it feels like everything is just kinda, going. Lately I feel like everything is too perfect. Nothing bad has happened, no bully's being mean, no bad grades, nothing in the ordinary.. but maybe its just cause I'm happy? I don't know. i feel like my life just isn't complete without craziness ! haha..

Today was the last day of school before winter break.
As i said, everything has been going very quickly! It made me sad.. Because I had to spend Christmas with my family (not what i was sad about, i love spending time with them).
But Elliot had to spend time with his too. So we wouldn't be able to spend it together..
It made me sad. I made him the most amazing gift! Or, I hope I did.. I hope he likes it! But I'm not sure when to give it to him. Its not the best present.. But I know he'll love it! its a long letter describing my love for him, and how amazing he is to me.. i do stuff like this a lot. i know he loves it by the way his face lights up. his smile says it all.

i feel like our love is one of those ones that should be in a movie. you know? like , everything is so perfect. and happy. i cant wrap my brain around how perfect it is..

as i was thinking all this i was in the car. and my mother decided to talk to me. instead of letting me go into dreamville about my perfect boyfriend.

"so, hows life" she said "umm... great?" i said shrugging "well, im sorry to say it might now be that way for long my dear.." she sighed "you know how when you used to ask about your father i told you that he didn't contact us?". 

i nodded "yes, i know" she pulled the car to the side of the road "well, he has now.." i looked at her, confused "he has? what did he say? what does he want?" she got her 'i did something bad' look on her face "im so sorry.. i lied.. the reason your father left and didn't make contact, is because he went to jail.. and i wouldn't let you talk to him.. and i didn't talk to him either." 

She almost started to cry "mom, dont be sorry.. i know he is, well, was a bad man. and he may still be. you did what was best. i dont exactly remember much about him.. but i remember he hurt us. and that makes him bad. so, what does he want?"

 she smiled and grabbed m hand " you're amazing sweetie.. and well.. he wants to see us.. mainly you. he says hes better now. but im not sure. and i dont know if i want him to see, or even talk to you.." she started to pull on to the road again "i agree.. just the thought gives me chills.." she nodded "yes, me too. but im not sure what to do about it all.. hes come back, and lives here now. so we might see him around.." i sighed "well, if we do, we'll talk. if not. we wont. thats how id like to go about this to be honest.." she smiled as we pulled into our driveway "yes, i agree. i think he is still a badman.. and i dont want you around him. we both know he is capable of hurting us.." we got out of the car and started i walk to the door.

i got to the door first, so i reached out and tried the door, thinking it was locked. and to my surprise. it wasn't. "mom? did you leave the door unlocked?" i turned around and asked her as she was coming up "no.. i didnt.." she said. i opened the door and stepped inside, as i stepped in i saw a man standing in our home. calmly he turned to me and said "hello dear. sorry, i let myself in. i didnt think itd be a problem.."