Trapped

There are three things in the world that I really want. I will tell you the first two, but I won't tell you the third one, but then, I will give you a hint to it.

I 'am Shana, 27 years old. I'm a call centre agent who lives in a small condominium in Makati, but now, I don't know where I am. The time was 2:30 pm when I'm weeping under the pillows of my single bed while my phone was ringing and before I knew it, I fell asleep. When I woke up, I am lying in a large yet, dark room. Even if I don't see a thing with my naked eyes, I can sense that this room isn't empty at all. I know that there is a chair away from me and a rope hanging above it. I don't know where it came from nor how do I knew this things. I sat in a cross sitting position while remembering all the years back from my childhood.

I remembered the day when I was orphaned. My aunt brought me to her house where I thought that I was being left alone. My aunt and her husband always punish me, while my cousin treats me like his pet. I thought that place was the most horrible place I've ever been to. But I was wrong. When I graduated elementary as valedictorian; someone gave me a scholarship in an elite school in Manila. At first, my rich classmates treat me well, but as time goes by, they started bullying me for being poor and ugly classmate. My high school life sucks. I admit it. I thought my high school life was the worst time in my whole life. But I was wrong.

I was always wrong. I had millions of questions circling in my mind since I was a child, but I never came up to an answer. First of all, I would like to have a key. A key to the door of this dark room, maybe. But I want a key to a larger door. A door that separates me from my dreams. A door that separates me from success. A door that traps me with misery and poverty. I want a key that will set me free from all of this. That is my first wish.

Second, I want someone to cling on. I want a friend that will always be there for me. Someone whom I can run to share all the happenings in my life. I can still remember back when I was in college, my so-called friends will just appear when they need my help for their research papers or projects. I want someone who will tap my back and comforts me. That's the second thing that I want to have right now.

I push away all those thoughts and began facing what's in front of me. I'm going to end this. I am going to end my misery. I am going to end my life. I remembered the chair and the rope. I stretched my legs and begin to stand. As I walk towards it, I notice a paper lying on the chair. I don't know how but my eyes suddenly adjust with the dark and started to read out loud the beautiful hand writings on the paper. It is stated, "Delight yourself in the LORD; and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4. As my voice echoed in the four corners of the room, I heard myself saying "He is the key", than hearing the words I said out loud. There was a tear that fell in my eyes when I heard those words. When I looked up to see the rope, I saw another paper taped with it. I took it with my sweaty hands and read the writings written on it, "It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you nor forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed." Deuteronomy 31:8. My voice, again, echoed saying, "God loves you even in good and bad times." When I heard those words, I began crying. In just two pieces of paper, my vision in life changed. If I surrender my life to God, and live as a true Christian should live, God is the Key to achieve what my heart desires. Surely, He will give peace in my heart. He is my father who will always be beside me in whom I can pray and share all the happenings in my life. I closed my eyes and whisper a prayer of thanksgiving. Thanking Him for being there.

When I opened my eyes, I was back in my condominium. I noticed two pieces of paper on the side table of my bed. I took it and it was the same paper I had in... in... in my dream. I remembered my dream and a smile broke in my face. I uttered the same thanksgiving prayer to God. I looked at the clock and it was already 6:30 in the evening. I only have 30 minutes till the last service in our church. I hurried to the bathroom and started fixing myself. When I'm done, I quickly rode a taxi to get to our church.

There are three things in the world that I really want. I already told you the first two, but I won't tell you the third one, but then, I just gave you a hint of it.

September 22, 2011

8:50 p.m.

Sorry po kung may mga wrong spellings at grammar. First time eh. Yung concept po na "there are three things tapos hindi ibibigay yung huli" parang ganun po yung dun sa "The Astonishing Adventures of Fanboy ang Gothgirl". Well, happy reading na lang din po! 😊