forever longing

*flashback*

"Please don't go"Inside I knew what I said wouldn't change the fact that The guy I've known forever who has not only been my best friend for 7 years,so since 1st grade he had just become my boyfriend and now he had to move from post falls to Burbank California. Weirdly me and my mom had been planning to move there anyway someday but still. "Look"he swallowed hard looking away from me."look I'm so sorry but my dad has to for work,trust me I don't want to move as much as u don't want me to leave." And I guess maybe he couldn't handle it and I saw a tear as he grabbed ahold of me telling me he was sorry and he loved me.

Stupid emily,believing everything she hears.That was 3 years ago and I guess he forgot about me but me no I thought of him every day,even when I tried my hardest not to. But I guess losing me could've been somewhat hard, or at leased thats what my best friend erin says, because I had become well you could say sort of famous. I had gotten second on X factor and a 10 million doller record deal to def jam recording studio! the only catch was I move to well Burbank California, but I didn't mind I loved california and I mean what we're the chances I run into him anyway I have to many fans following me and security plus it's a big city. I had just released two singles that had hit #1 first day and I had already made $2,000,000 each just for myself on the song,the most any artist had ever made in that early of a release. Ever since Caleb (the guy before) left I kinda clung to music (and god) to keep my mind off of him. I also changed my image intensely for X factor and really just for myself, I went from that messy haired,heavier,acne pale girl to the tall perfect haired blonde with great skin that was tanned to amazingness and a healthy perfect body,with bright green eyes and lucious lips well that's at leased what my fans kept telling me but I still thought I wasn't anything special.

"Hunny were here wake up" my mom shook me. I looked out of the jet window to see the beautiful bright Burbank. "Wow" I sighed. "It's amazing,just like u" my mom sincerely said "oh mom" I chuckled. I hopped up and grabbed my luggage ready to go see the house the record label was paying for. we got into the limo and reached the house in just 15 min. I like that,it was only 15 minutes from downtown.

"Wait this is our house?"I spit out not really understanding how I could speak. It was beautiful located in a rich neighborhood, it was our own white 4 story mansion, "this is really ours?" I asked the driver. "That's what I was told" he laughed. I took my tour of the house and was amazed. The outside had a huge garden my mom would die for, a big pool with a slide and an outdoor kitchen and furniture plus it was all landscaped. The inside was well you could say perfect! my bedroom itself carried a 50' flat screen,a nice master bathroom,a walk in closet, a king sized bed,a makeup place and room to walk! My moms room was that but 10 times better as I wanted it to be, it even had a sauna! The kitchen was huge with an island,new appliances,a bar and just perfect. The bathrooms were all big with perfect details everywhere. The living room was furnished to perfection probably cuz me and my best friend did all the furnishing and she is amazing with that stuff. My favorite room did have to be the music studio because truthfully I just flat out loved music! It had a grand piano,3 electric guitars,2 acoustic,1 violin,1 electric violin,a big drum kit,and a out of this world recording studio with all the equipment. Dang a recording studio knows how to make someone stay with them. In fact I knew that why this house was so amazing,without the record label I could make way more money and they knew my manager wanted me to leave them,but they want me to stay so they bought me this but they didnt realize I liked there help in fact needed it because I just enjoy music and don't care for or understand the rest of it well except my fans I love them to death! after I looked over everything I got all ready for bed, went into my room and facetimed my bestie,Erin! She answered in a second "omg how is it there I miss you soo much!" She yelped. I gave her a tour of the house and she went crazy "dang girl your living like a queen,but you deserve it you so amazing" aww Erin always knows how to make u love her (as a sister of course)! "Aww happy (her nickname) u too" I laughed "really happy again" she giggled. "Yes that will forever be your nickname inbrace it" I smiled. "Whatever,but I do wanna know if you think you'll be seeing caleb soon?" She became serious knowing I was kinda sensitive with this. "Um I dont think so, I mean it really is a big city and it's not like I have that much time anyway to be out" this was true but something in my gut told me I might see him but I really don't know what I would do,I didn't even know how I felt,was I mad,no I think I was really just disappointed. I thought he loved me but he was just playing with me because he didnt even bother a text message once so he couldn't care about me like he said. "We'll you best be free when I come see u next week!" Erin lifted up the mood. "Haha I actually have the next 2 weeks off as long as I do some recoding in the house so we have all the time In the world" I screeched! " haha good,dang it's getting late I gotta go night lylas" Erin smiled! "Haha love ya too nighty" I giggled. I layed in bed for a while and In about 5 min drifted off.