Last Nights// a Dalton Rapattoni fanfic

Chapter 1

Dalton

"Well I have been really happy and then out of nowhere depressed.", I tell Dr. Ushbaro.

"Hmm... How long has this lasted?"

"Well each period lasts about a few days to a week."

"Hmm... it sounds like you have bipolar disorder."

"What the heck is that ?"

Those words hit my ears like a brick wall. I have no idea what they mean and it sounds so scary to have.

"It is when you have happy periods and depressed periods."

I still don't understand the words coming out of her mouth.

"Ok then."

"I am prescribing you some medicine for it. The people at the pharmacy will tell you directions on when to take it."

"Thank you."

When I get back home I look up "bipolar disorder" on Google.

 

Bipolar disorder 
Also called: manic depression

A disorder associated with episodes of mood swings ranging from depressive lows to manic highs.

 

For some reason this definition makes more sense than the psychiatrist's even though it has more complex vocabulary. I think the more complex something is, the more I understand it.  I find that strange, but that is my mind. My mind is strange, and there is nothing I can do about it. It is so scary having bipolar. I don't know when I am going to be happy and when I am going to be sad and am never ready when they change. When I am in the depressed state, nothing can cheer me up, except singing, which I barely do, only when I am alone and nobody can hear me.  Having bipolar is less scary than it sounds. It sounds like a horrible monster when in reality it isn't that bad. I just need something or someone in my life to always be with me and have to love and cheer me up when I need to be cheered up. I am afraid that if I fall in love, I will act up and everything will be destroyed. I know I have Mom, who loves me and I love her, but I need a different type of love.

I go to Target the next day and right as I go to check out, I see this beautiful girl who is the cashier.

"Hey.", I say nervously, handing her the items I am checking out.

"Hello. What is your name?", she replies.

"I'm Dalton."

"Hello Dalton. I'm Maddie. You are pretty cute. Your eyes are beautiful."