A royal pain in the ass

Chapter 5 'More lies being exposed'

Chapter 5 'More lies being exposed'

'James,' I blurt out before I know it. I mentally face palm myself right now. Why can't I just come up with a normal answer?! 'James?' Niall now asks with a questionable look on his face, waiting for an explanation. 'Yeah, he's really sweet! We have been dating for 6 months now,' I blurt out, hoping that Niall actually buys this crap. He seems to, as he gives me a small smile. 'What? You're not happy for me?' I blurt out again, while I start to feel more and more sad. Why can't he just be happy for me? He knows I deserve to be happy again. Although it's not real, he doesn't know that. 'Of course I'm happy for you! I just have to let it sink in for a moment,' Niall says. 'You've dated my best friend for quite some time and it feels weird seeing you date other people'

I give him a small smile to show him I understand. Although I'm not already in the dating mood, I do have all the right to if you look at how I was treated by my ex boyfriend. Still I don't feel like being all lovey dovey again with this baby in my belly. I shake my thoughts off of me and see that Niall is also in deep thoughts.

'What are you doing here Niall? On my favorite bench in my favorite park.' I softly ask him. He slowly moves his eyes my way and I notice his cheeks turning slightly red. 'Uhm- Well- ' He stutters. Gosh he looks so cute right now with his bright blue eyes and crimson red cheeks! 'Let me start at the beginning, or should I say ending of our last meeting?' Now it's my turn to blush, it was definitely rude of me to run out like that the other day, but it just seemed like my only escape.

'Well after you ran out of me, that guy Jack came to me furiously, telling me that I was only hurting you again and that I should stay away from you. I kinda figured out already that apparently you told him your whole life story as I haven't done anything to this man to hate me,' Niall tells me. I look down at the wood of the bench as I'm too ashamed to look him in the eyes any more. 'I don't know what you exactly told him Sofia, but you know I've never hurt you so I don't know why you lie to him about that,' Niall continues bitterly.

My eyes shoot up from the bench to his face and I cringe as I see the hurt in his eyes. 'You know what Niall, you actually have!' I exclaim. Surprise comes up in his eyes as he looks at me. 'You were always there for me that's true, and I will never forget that. But you never stood up to the boys for me, never told him how much he actually hurt me when he last minute cancelled on me, or when he forgot to pick me up. Never! I love you Niall, for being there for me, but friends make sure that no-one hurts them, and don't just comfort each other when their boyfriend was mean again,' I tell him, looking him straight in the eyes. This has been on my mind for a long time and I never meant to tell Niall because I know it would hurt him, but it also feels as a relief now that I told him. He looks at me and I can clearly see the hurt in his eyes. Gosh I'm officially a bitch.

'Niall, I'm so sorry. I really didn't want to say that.' I move towards him on the bench and give him a side hug. After holding him for a while I feel the tension go away and Niall let's out a big sigh. 'He really misses you, you know. I can tell' He whispers and I almost can't hear him. I scrunch op my nose as I think about this. Does he really misses me? I can hardly believe it, but I know Niall never lies. I feel a small desire come up, but I quickly put it away again. Old habits are hard to forget, but I know I'm not in love with him any more. Sure he's the father of my child, that's obvious, but too much has happened and I definitely have no feelings for him any more. He has had his chance and he ruined it big time. It's time to move on.

'Does he know? That you're seeing me?' I ask him while I turn my head to look at him. 'No, I thought I'd keep it a secret just to be sure. You might take off again and I can't bare losing you again,' Niall says with tenderness. Ahh this kid is so cute. I hug him tighter as a response. 'Niall, I'm really really sorry about yesterday, this is quite a shock for me as I thought I'd never see you again. But I want to keep in touch with you, I really missed you Ni,' I tell him with my head against his shoulder, while we are still in some sort of embrace. 'I miss you too S,' Niall softly says. 'Just promise me you won't tell them, I really don't feel like seeing them okay? Did Zayn tell something about our encounter to the rest?' I ask him while looking at his face from my position. 'Uhh, okay I promise. No, he's been busy with partying and shopping, you know how easily Zayn forgets about things.' We both start to laugh as we think back at how often Zayn had forgotten things. It was hilarious, really. One time he had just waked up and completely forgotten about his fame and fans. He had just walked out of the hotel to get some coffee and was immediately surprised by thousands of fans who were waiting outside. He was only wearing his pyjamas and although many fans thought he looked adorable, he couldn't laugh about it.