This whole story is just a way for me to put my thoughts, feelings, and emotions down on paper so to say. I haven't been the best person in the world and to be honest I wish that all of the problems that I have caused my whole family really didn't happen. The way that I have treated my family in the past is disgraceful. I was dumb enough to fall for someone that was not excepted into the family and this caused a great deal of conflict between me and the family. When I was around this particular person I felt secure, safe, wanted, loved but eventually things started to turn sour and not very pretty to say the least. And this is how it happened....
I was just turning 16 when I met this particular person and he seemed a very nice genuine young lad when I first got to know him. He took me out when he could, make me feel special and wanted around different people and well just making me feel like I was worth something. At this point I was just diagnosed with depression and bipolar dysfunction. By this, I mean, is that I can be happy one minute and then feel like the whole world is caving in on top of me at another. It is very difficult to control the way that I think, feel and act because I also hear voices and see things in the dark. Its very contradictive that I like the dark but I'm actually scared of it. Don't ask because I don't know. But the voices that I hear and things that I see are telling me to do stuff that will make them happy and make me unhappy all because that I don't deserve it.
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Vent Diary
Non-FictionThis Vent Diary is based on my life an how I'm going through my daily challenges, thoughts and voices. I will warn you that this will have some triggering areas (based on self harm/suicide) so if you are struggling with either then this isn't for yo...
