I came to realize every night I wasn't alone. They would be waiting on the desk or at the foot of my bed, closer and closer every night. I found what makes them calm though, that must be a good thing right? Piano music. I feel like day after day I am gaining control over them and it makes me feel better about the situation. I was having a quiet panic attack when they came back screaming louder and louder.
But I stayed quiet..
I bet my friend down stairs didn't know what was happening because I was so quiet, probably thought I was asleep! I didn't want to be bothered anyway, but it went on for 2/3 hours straight that was the longest they have been there in one period of time. Well one good thing in my day was I learned how to play Heart Of Courage by Two Steps From Hell on the piano finally. It was tough trying to learn that, but it keeps the devils away.. It keeps them away for a hours so I can live my life normally for once. I think this is all I will put for today.
Oh and hey, call me Loco for now on.
