In the mind of a walker

CHAPTER 7

The amount of times i have looked at kyle and wanted to just rip his head off, crack open his skull and scoop his brain in to my mouth...i have lost count of how many times i have even imaged it. I think nathan has too the way that he keeps looking at him in a longing way...the way a dog would if its owner held a bone to its face.

Its been almost two hours since we set off and still there is no sign of any food. At first it was great, i was running and playing with kevin and the boys were staring at us smiling to see me happy for once in a long while....but now.....its like iv been zombifyed, haha no pun intended, even kevin seems to have lost his happy mood.

After a while i hear a bark, stunned, i look up to see that kevin had caught a deer by the leg. My first instinct would be to help him but i didnt no how.
Looking around i find a large piece of metal, picking it up i walk over to kevin and the deer. I look in to the deers eyes im sorry i really am i whisper to it and then with all of my remaining strength i thrust the metal pole forward hitting the deer square between the eyes.

I drop to the floor and if i could cry right now that is what i would do.
Nathan walks up behind me and put his hand on my shoulder and said 'you did what you had to do'. Knowing he was sadly right i stood up and threw my arms around him to hide my grief from not only kyle but him too.

We cant stay here i say begining to drag the deer to an abandoned house, come on help me i say to them. As i let the boys drag the deer up the stairs of the house i checked all of the rooms, locking the front and back door, closing what was left of curtains and lighting a dim candle. Tonight this is where we stay.

I go to the corner of the room and slump my body against the wall and slide down til my bum was on the floor, i dragged my knees to my chest and put my arms around them. Noticing my mood kyle and nathan go either side of my and imitate me.
I lie my head on kyles shoulder and embrace kevin who was now at my feet.

Is this all this life has to offer? Death of innocents for our sake? I ask. What about when there are no more animals....what do we do than? I say.
'Its only going to get better from here' kyle says. Its easy for you to say....your still human once all this shit is sorted youll be part of the rehab team were as well be killed on sight i say depressing myself further more.
'Well cross that bridge when we come to it' nathan says giving kyle the evils making sure he keeps his mouth shut.

With that the night set in and we awaited the rise of the sun.