Unkiss Me

DEC'S POV

It started off as drunk move then turned into wanting to kiss and touch each other not like normal best friend would do. We're not really talking about it, we felt like it normal for us. The problem of not talking about it made me it worse. I felt like what we had was more than just sexual needed, we could be more than best friend, we could be something else. That's when I realized, I had fallen in love with my best friend, Ant. After a week of misery and not knowing what to do. I finally told him. And I ended up crying because he didn't feel the same, it was just a sex for him.

Here I was sitting all alone by myself in a pub on Sunday night. After that day my friendship with Ant were awkward, we didn't talk much outside of work. So I guess we shouldn't told your best friend you're in love with him and pretended like it never happen because it probably ruined your friendship with them. Then this song came out of nowhere 'Unkiss Me' by Maroon 5, I swore to god this song was written for me. It brought me back to memory of that day.

---Flashback---

"Anth..." I whispered after our 'love making session' Yeah that is what I told myself.

"Hmm" He's clearly still catching for breath.

"What are we?" I asked, hoping that his answer was the one I wanted.

"Why do you are ask? You are not thinking dating someone else, aren't you?" He raised his eyebrows.

"No, I'm not. Never mind"

He stared at me "You lied, you can tell me anything you know that, right?" He cupped my cheek gently which didn't help me at all.

"I-I want to know if we could be more than this because if we don't then we should stop" I stammered, paused to steady my voice "All of this"

"Why I thought you like it?"

"I still do"

"Then why we should stop?" He said nonchalantly and I lost it. I stood up sat on a bed.

"Because I can't do this anymore! I am fucking in love with you, Anth! I love you so much, that's it hurt me. Sometime you makes me feel like the most important person in the world to you and then you seem like you doesn't care about me at all. I'm just someone who you just have sex with. Why Ant? Why? Why you do this to me?" I was sobbing by now.

"Decky lis-" I cut him off

"No you listen to me!" I yelled at him "You have to make a decision now. If we could be more than this or not, if we couldn't we will forget all of this ever happen. So Ant?"

"Uh... Decks I-I"

"Cut the crap will ye! Just tell me already! Stop pretending like you care because you don't!" I screamed at him, his eyes winded in shocked.

"Dec that's not true, man! I care about you" He defended himself.

"Then why you do this to me! You act like there was something more but it wasn't, was it?" I chocked out, tears rolling down my cheeks. He stepped closer to me and grabbed my arm but I pulled away violently.

If you respect me
Don't protect me
You can tell me,
I can handle it
Stop pretending 'cause we're going down