Authors Note: the girl on the left is @kylieeerae (her Instagram) and that's who I picture Bella to be and on the right is @ilansworth_bently on Instagram and I picture her to be Jay. FYI Jay has tattoos too so yeah :)
The sound of a horrid alarm woke me up. Monday. Yay my favorite day. Now it's time for a week of working at Starbucks. I know it's cliché, the heartbroken girl years later works at a cafe to make a living. Wrong. I work at the cafe to help Jay most of the time and when I'm not at the cafe I'm working at a day care. So here's my schedule; Monday and Tuesday, I work at the cafe and Wednesday and Thursday the day care. I have Friday all to myself. Exciting right?
Once I was ready I headed to wake Jay up.
"Jay! Get up, we have work." I said walking towards her window to open the curtains. She groaned at the bright light coming into her room.
"What are you talking about? We have today off." She mumble as she buried her face into the pillows. I smiled at how she looked.
"Then let's go out. Let's do something tonight or today." I say walking towards her bed.
"No. Let's be lazy." She mumbled. I jumped onto the bed at hugged her.
"C'mon boo. Let's go." I say using one of my hands to poke her cheek.
"Fine but only because I love you."
"I know you do." I smiled getting off of her and her bed.
"Bitch that's the part where you're supposed to say I love you too." She said throwing a pillow at me.
"I love you too now go get ready."
(Highly recommend listening to I Hate You, I Love You by Gnash right now) While she got ready I say in my room blasting Gerald and Logic to tune out the music coming from my best friends room. I guess the bass was very strong due to it being very loud that shook the walls causing a box to fall from my closet. Letters, notes, pictures all sprawled on the floor. A picture of Harold sleeping, us at the lake. A note.
"You're still asleep and I have to get to work and I don't want to bother waking you since you look so beautiful, I want you to know I'm at work and I'll bring you some pastries from the bakery.
All the love,
H."
"You just called me a butt face for eating your cupcake. I don't know if I should laugh or go get you another. You currently locked yourself in your room. I'm going to go get you another cupcake. :) <3
All the love,
butt face ? "
"My beautiful Bella,
I love you. That's what I was going to tell you at the party before I left to calm Louis down since you know what happened. I love you. I always have. I was just afraid to tell you. So I think it'll be best if I left. You know before I fuck everything up again. I'm going to California. Not only to protect you but for my singing career. I love you so much Bell. Take care.
Love,
Harry."
I cry looking at everything. I cry harder reading everything. My sadness turns to anger once again which results with me throwing the pictures and letter and notes and the box across the room as I wept. I loved him. I love him. I hate that. I hate that I love him.
