i just wanna die but im scared because i know what will happen. No one will care. itll be like i was never there. no one would notice im gone. people might even be glad. my mother wouldnt shed a tear nor would anyone else. my dad might care but he would also kinda be glad that he doesnt have to deal with my mother anymore. truthfully it would probably be better for everyone but i know i could never do it. im too weak. so i guess i just live on with everyone (including myself) hating me and wishing i was dead until i finally do it and just end it all not like it would matter...
