messages [big sean]

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jayda sat in her bed, covers and pillows huddled close to her body as she stared at the bright light that came from her phone, illuminating the dark room.

she had woken up suddenly in the night, as usual, and checked her social media, trying to lull herself back to sleep.

again, she came across his profile and thought about messaging him. just as she was about to exit the page again, she thought about what would happen if she did. she wrestled with her inside thoughts for a while until she started typing.

xxjayda : hey

xxjayda : i know you don't me, but you're a huge inspiration in my life and i adore you

xxjayda : you'll probably never get this message but it's totally okay bc at least i said something

xxjayda : that's all i guess...

she exited the page, turned off her phone, and laid in the dark, trying to fall asleep again, but the messages still lingered in her mind.

she pushed the thoughts away from her mind, and closed her eyes, relaxing. yes, she'd sent the messages, but it's not like he would read them.

and that small thought brought her peace, at least enough to send her back to sleep.