Waiheke's Journal!

...Sorry?

I know the last chapter was about "omg I am such a drama queen lol!"

But I kinda can't laugh things off anymore...I take things to heart and just pretend that I am okay. But really, I am hurt.

I kniw this sounds pathetic but bare with me, it's important.

So over the last couple of months, even though I have a pretty much perfect life, I suddenly got depression.
I didn't know the cause of it, had no Flippin clue on how to fix it and didn't know if I should talk to anyone about it.

So I let the emotion stir inside.

But recently, it's been flowing out, I eat about once a day, I randomly cry, I am avoiding my friends, it takes me forever to sleep or I randomly pass out.

And I have been thinking, how do I benefit the world? Maybe it would be better if I wasn't born at all.

Now before you all go "nuu don't kill urself!" I just want to clarify, I will not be killing myself...

But I may be leaving wattpad.

I don't think the Internet is a good idea with how I am feeling a lot.

I might come back, but I might not leave in the first place.

This is my decision, and no, there is nothing you can say to change my mind.

Sorry for all the bothersome drama.

I am just not as strong as you guys...