Part 1
When I first ' met ' you I thought you weren't going to be as important as you are now . We became friends , then best friends . I was able to tell you anything , and the same for you . Our late night conversations seemed endless . You suddenly became single! I was sad yet somewhat happy . I was sad since the person you had broken up with was my best friend . But I guess I was also a bit happy since I had developed a small secret crush on you . Then and there you asked me out . The break up happened through text messages as well as when you asked me out . I stupidly said yes .
You went on and on about how happy you were to call me yours . We kept a secret from your ex ( my best friend ) , just because we thought it was to soon . You told me you just couldn't hold it in and told her . She took it pretty good, then again I think she didn't . When they were together , she had mentioned how much she loved him, and that he was the first person she actually had deep feelings for . So then about a week later we had an argument . Which ended our relationship . But we stayed friends obviously . You started talking to your ex again . You told her the exact same words you told me . So it was obvious that you trying to get with her again. And it worked . You guys got back together while I just stood there pretending I was happy . Don't get me wrong I was obviously happy I mean she is my best friend . But I was heartbroken . So then that ended . We kept having "on and off relatioships" . I hated it . I wanted so badly to call you mine . But when I had the chance to do that , it was only for a short time since our relationships only lasted about a week . I felt so used . You broke up with me after saying you loved me , you had me thinking I did something , that it was my fault . You would alway bring up your current girlfriends and I would say i'd be happy for you . Which i actually was because then again we were close friends . We would still hangout , which would be fun . You would always make me feel better when I was down . Thing was that when we did hang out , we got close , too close . We acted as if we were more than friends . In a way , i enjoyed it . But i also had to come back to reality , which is when I would realize that we werent actually dating.
About a month later , I hung out with her again . She had told me what you have said about me . Stuff like " I think shes the one ." When she told me that my heart lit up . I tried not to smile but it just came out . But again I realized that , that was in the past and now its all gone. We stopped talking for some reason. We just drifted apart . Months later you texted me and we started to hang out again . I remember you hugging me tightly and telling me how much you missed me . I loved it . 2015 came months later . That was the year we kissed . Im pretty sure it was someday in February . When your lips met with mine it felt like everything around me just disappeared . I honestly hoped you felt the same . I remember i pulled away because I thought of my best friend . You wanted to keep going but I wanted to be a good friend like always . Hope you weren't disappointed . Later that day we kissed again . It was longer and same as the first , it felt amazing (even though you weren't my first kiss) . When we both pulled away you hugged me and said " Aww you're shaking .... its ok ." . You made feel secure.
