Keeping Me Around

uno

"Yes! And I caught them kissing. Just what the hell right?! My mom is already 43. I can't believe them! Then mom told me that, Tim's her first love. I swear they are giving me creeps."

I called brooklyn and told her that I was really surprised. And also, pissed.

"You've got to be kidding me Madi, I mean, mabuti pa mommy mo may jowa. Daig ka pa! Sana all may Tim." Then brooklyn laugh out loud.

"Goodness brook, you're not helping. I guess I need some fresh air to think. I'll call you later." After I talked to Brook, I decided to go to the park. I need nature right now.

Pero hinding hindi ako dadaan sa main door dahil alam kong nandoon pa sila ng boyfr-ugh! I hate it when I think about them. I guess I should use my window to get out of here. I need to unwind.

Naglakad-lakad ako sa park.

I didn't get it. Why the hell my mother have a boyfriend?! Parang kahapon lang single siya ah?!

And that man looks unfamiliar. Hindi ko siya nakikita sa lahat ng events or alumni na kasama si mommy. Well ofcourse I am definitely over protective to my mom. After dad passed away 10 years ago, I needed mom to be happy but not by having a boyfriend! I'm saying is, in a right way when boyfriends are not allowed.

And her first love huh? Can't she just be happy because I'm always here for her? I don't need a new dad for goodness sake! I can take care of my own and ofcourse my mom too.

Things are getting worse. I will definitely--- fuck it! I turn to the man who's smoking infront of me. At talagang sa mukha ko pa binubuga ang usok ng vape niya?!

"What the fuck? Can't you see me?" At dahil punong puno ng usok ginamit ko ang aking kamay para mawala agad ito.

I looked at the dumbass. Medyo nawala ako sa sarili ng makita ko siya. Okay fine he's quite handsome. Pero hindi ako nagpapaapekto sa mga gwapong katulad niya. He's pissing me off.

"No." Sagot niya at hindi manlang ako tinignan. I swear he's the dumbest handsome I've ever met.

Hindi pa ako nakakaalis sa pwesto ko ay agad nanaman siyang bumuga ng usok na lalong nakapanggigil sa akin. Sa inis ko, bago pa mawala ang usok I quickly stepped in his foot with full of strength and then walk so fast. Nang makalayo ako tinapunan ko siya ng tingin at medyo nagulat pa ako dahil nakatingin siya sa akin. In other words, He's glaring at me. I just raised my middle finger to him. Did he think I'm scared of his glare? Huh. Just so he know, he started it.

Fucking moron. I thought walking at the park was a good idea. I've change my mind. That man was just pissing me off.

At dahil ayaw ko pang umuwi, I ended at the bar. Maybe this crowded bar can help me to think.

Don't get me wrong. I'm 20 years old already and the owner of this bar is my ex's father. Can you believe that? Ofcourse I am allowed here. Botong boto sa akin ang Dad ng ex ko eh. Unfortunately his son and I, we're not for each other.

"Vodka." I said to the bartender.

I need to think carefully. In the first place, why the hell mom need a boyfriend? Isn't she happy for just having me in her life? What made her think that Tim will be her lifetime boyfriend?! To think that he is her first love?! They are not teenager anymore.

Napa face palm ako. Pakiramdam ko anytime magkakaroon ako ng sakit. My head hurts like hell.

After five glasses of vodka an old man walk towards me.