"All these years of slitting my wrist
Hoping it would take me somewhere
other then this..."
Cutting open doorways on my body
Waiting for the demons to seep out
But i have learned
That they are not ready
They tell me to keep cutting
Just incase they decide to leave
Tell me to stay away from everyone
Keep OUR secret safe
Tell me that ONE day
He will break loose
And share his power,and wisdom with everyone else
But for now he needs time to revive
Staying close beside my heart
Feeding off it's warmness
But slowly it deteriates
And turns bitter and icy
Untill
That final 1 last beat
That gets his heart racing!
(Like a touch down at a football game)
Then once he has nothing left to take
As a mistooken rookie cuts him self
For the very first time!
The boy feels ashamed and wants to stop
But what he didnt know was that
That 1 little slice
Was the doorway for his demons
To let themselves in
To settle themselves.
And laugh at his troubles
Slowly but quickly leading him to his death
Tells me i am special
That he is the only 1 who cares for me
That he will take good care of me
Aslong as i do as i am told
Then turns on me
When in my darkest of days
I become his slave
No longer filling me with courage
But with aknollegments of my insecurities
And deepest fears
As miserable time dreads by
I try to think of ways to end this torture
But by then it is already to late...
That final dip ,and drop of my heart
Then it freezes...
Like a jet hurling towards it's fate
Due to engine problems
Then crashes into nothing
Where noone finds you
Your all alone
By now the demons are screaching with excitement
As if it were movie,a game
And i was just a pawn in the plan
For there cruel selfish enjoyment
Once i was gone
There was nothing and noone
Not even my demons
I was betrayed and heart broken
I used to love to be alone
Now that im all alone here
In this black nothingness
I relize ...
I want to go home
I want to see my mom and dad
Even the bullies at my school...
But it is too late now
I should have never took that moodswing slice of destiny
But it's too late.
-Thanks for reading my poem c;
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