The Innocent

5.

They say the coolest playas and foulest heart breakers in the world. God gets us back; he makes us have precious little girls. – Nas X Daughters

Shawn

"What did the test determine?" My ma said as she looked at me.

I could tell that the tension in the room was thick you could cut it with a knife. Between her and Kali I couldn't tell who was mad the most.

I unfolded the paper that was in my pocket. I handed the paper to my mom and she read it silently. Her eye began to twitch and she threw the paper down.

"Your fuckin sixteen years old!!!! What in the hell do you need with a baby?" She screamed.

I could tell she was furious. She never screamed at me no matter what I did but this was the last straw with her. I felt kind of bad but at the same time I felt like what is done is done. Aint no need to get mad about it.

"Huh?" She yelled getting into my face.

I turned my face and stepped away from her. I didn't want her in my face and I didn't want her screaming and yelling at me.

"What's done is done. Aight? We ain't gone talk about it no mo'. You a grandma now and Kali you're an auntie. Don't nobody gotta be in that baby life but me and her mama" I said looking into my mom's eyes and then into Kali's.

I wanted them to make sure they knew that. I had a lot of growing up to do and I had to do it fast. I had a little girl to look after now.

I left them in the living room and grabbed the keys to my car. I didn't want to stay home tonight and I definitely wasn't going to.

I was too young to get a hotel or a motel. I was basically fucked unless I called Ashleigh but she aint fucking with me right now because of the shit that happened at school.

I scrolled down my contact list and the only person whose name popped up was Willow. I shook my head and laughed.

"Hell nah" I mumbled to myself.

My heart began to pound a little faster when I thought of Serenity and how I haven't saw her till just a few hours ago. She looked like her mom. She was so beautiful, and innocent. I couldn't get those chocolate eyes out of my mind or the way she sat in her car seat so peacefully.

I needed to see her again and if I wanted to see her again. I had to go through her mama and I'm sure her grandmother.

I thought about the conversation my mom had with me the other day after we left the hospital.

She was highly upset. Tears were streaming down her face and she could barely look at me. She was very disappointed in me not only because of me having a baby at a young age but because she knew whose daughter that was.

She thought what I was doing was heartless and she raised me to not be that way. I told her I didn't care and I didn't want to talk about it.

My sister is mad at me and my mom is mad at me. I really didn't have nobody but I was kinda get use to the shit by now. All I had was Serenity and we barely had a relationship and I'm her dad.

What can I give her and I'm only 16 year's old? She only two weeks old and I'm 16 years older than her.

I sat in my car driving around town contemplating if I should call Willow or not. It was already 12:30 at night and she was probably dealing with Serenity.

I decided to call her.

The phone rung about four times before she answered the phone. I made a right turn in a dark alley before I placed my car in park.