Stuck in the Middle

Why do I always get stuck in the middle? Do i carry a curse or something? Once again it has happened. And once again, it broke my heart.

The problem about nice guys are people dont remember you have feelings too, its like, you're giving them permission, subconsciously,

to step all over you. Heres the story, back at the first day of school....

Since my freshman year ended just like that- I felt like I should at least do something worthwhile this year, something important.

I shouldnt let myself fall in love again. Not again. Not yet, anyway. So I just thought this year, I should make many friends.

That and because next year im moving away to canada. Its time for class... everything seemed so well... My best friend who is a girl has

already arrived and hey, she looks amazing, its like im looking at her for the very first time in my life... No. I cant be falling in love,

especially not with my bestfriend. We talked of course, caught up with each other, and it's positive. Everything about her makes me fall in love even more.

Lunch time, the two of us sat next to each other, thats whats friends are for right? No one really judged as as couples, they all know me as the guy who

is so nice, he doesnt fall in love. Well, theyre wrong. And I hate it. The jokes, The corniness of everything we say, it just makes me smile so much

I cant help myself... Its a good thing our new classmate, Roy, sat in with us, there were no seats left so we just let him stay...

He was a nice guy, his stories were so great the three of us were having a great time with each other.. Especially me. But Joen doesnt know that.

Few months passed, The three of us have really hit it. Were always together and we enjoy each others company. Thats why I never expected this day to come...

Behind my back, the two were developing feelings for eachother... Roy one day confessed to me his love for Joen, I acted as if though I was glad.

I even encouraged him... but deep inside, I was dying...It hurt. It felt like he burned a hole into my heart. I despised him.

Moments later, It was Joen who told me that he loved Roy. I acted as if though I was glad again... But i thought to myself, a question I have once asked myself.

"What about me? Why do I always get stuck in the middle? Do i carry a curse or something?". As she was telling me her feelings for him, I was silent. 

What kind of a sick cruel joke was fate playing on to me? Inside, I was already dead. 

A few more months passed...It was already march and the two are already together. They seem to be liking their time with each other and already has forgotten about me.

I was alone. It felt lonely. Whats worse every single day It hurts me to see them together...

I guess the only option was to runaway for now. I hope Canada will be a better place for a simpleton like me.