Letters to...

1. Letters to the girl whose crush doesn't love her back.

To the girl whose crush doesn't love her back,

Maybe it's not a bad thing to have your heart broken. Maybe it is. By seeing the guy you thought you loved flirt with another woman.

That's the thing about crushes, am I right? They crush you.

At first, knowing that he loved another girl while I was going on and on and on about him was like a dagger in my heart. I thought that he might have at least returned those feelings a little. Well, hope kills. But, I still had to pull that dagger out to keep on fighting. Fighting for who? Oh, not for that significant him. I did it for myself. For me to stop hurting. Maybe this fight would make me miss him more. Maybe it would make me become stronger. Who knows. Things don't always have a plan.

I mean, that's what you do right? God forbid, that's what everyone does. We try to rebel with pain.It just makes us realise that the pain is real..We try to tell ourselves that its okay. Its not. We all try to remove the source of the pain. But the wound is still there. Once you touch it, or try to move it, it starts to hurt again. We believe that we've taken all the pain away, but the truth is, we never do. We don't want to fix it because we are scared we will lose the moments with him.

Well, that feeling will last until we've decided you've had enough. Like when you've decided to delete all your messages with him, or when you've finally decide to go to the doc's to stitch up that goddamn wound.

But, even after getting stitched up, the pain is still there. But, good job. You've taken a step forward. During the period of healing, you might feel lonely, depressed, or even wanting to go back. You want to open up that message box again, see your conversations and reminisce. In that healing period, you want to scratch that stupid itchy wound so you can feel better. Everyone asks- hell, even if they beg you not to, you still go ahead and do it so you feel better- even if its just for a moment.

And after that blissful moment of thinking about him, that feeling fades. It turns into anger, hate, self-reproach, and for a moment you might feel that you lost him because you were being, well... You.

You have to struggle to resist the temptation. The itch will just have to be dulled down. The message box will have to remain without a "hi." It's hard. But the pain will pass. It might not necessarily go one shot, but it will pass. Eventually. It's okay to feel pain. It means you're human.

Next, you might even be able to look at him without having that scrunchy feeling in your stomach. Hell, you might even be brave enough to congratulate him on getting with that other woman. Well, if you do that without an ounce of apprehension, buy some chocolate ice- cream girl, cuz you just learned how to completely let go of that one crush.

Don't get blinded by the feeling of wanting to be loved. Maybe he just wasn't your "Mr. Right". Maybe there's someone there for you. Somewhere.

There's this old Greek myth that the gods used to build a person, and separate them into half. They put them to be as near as next door neighbors or as far as across the seven seas. The gods thought that it would be thrilling to see heartbreak when the "petty humans" found out that their match wasn't actually their other half. Well, although I personally agree that the gods were big losers, I also believe that they split us up for a reason. The adventure in finding your perfect match is rather exhilarating. You love, you break, and you love again. The road to true love is hard. I mean, a place where everyone lives happily ever after in a utopian story is rather boring, isn't it? I mean it like.. "Mary wanted to be loved. John wanted to love someone. Mary met John. They were perfect for each other. They fell in love and lived happily ever after." kind of story. Picture perfect. I feel that the heartbreaks and tears make life and love more meaningful, don't they?

So, having a crush that loves another doesn't mean that the world is going to end. Think of it as an experience. An experience to help you know that you still have a perfect match out there. And your adventure for love will be longer. More breathtaking. More memorable. More astounding. Yes, think of it like that! After all, a chipped cup, when seen in a different light, will appear to be whole.

Love,
Naomi.

A/N
Well.. this really isnt one of my best. But I wrote it after finding my old diary about him. So, words just came out and boom... this weird "letter to..." was born. So, please comment if you feel like you disagree with something. Just please make it construtive criticism. Thanks.
P.s.
I try not to make too many a/n's.. so yeah...