This is for a new friend KemiyaCowan
(y/n) P.O.V
i got off my bed with my eyes half closed and closed the curtains shut. I couldn't stand to see light anymore. it brought back memories from when i was younger, back when my smiles never seemed to go away. I envy that person so badly, i went back and lied on my bed and sniffled 'go take your medicine' the voices of depression seemed to never stop whispering ways to end the pain. Sometimes i actually consider them friends, something that i cant have anymore people pretend to care but i know there just pitying me, a 'charity case' if you will. i looked at my arms and saw the scars and writings i placed there 'FAT' 'UGLY' 'ALONE' 'UNWANTED' 'UNLOVED' and fading lines that crossed over each other i looked at my legs and saw more. I sighed deeply and headed towards the bathroom I reached out for my 'medicine' a stained knife and rinsed it of its dried blood. i placed the knife on my other arm slicing it quickly 'don't worry your fine' on my fifth slice i started to grin 'the only thing bad about you are these scars........ no one will love you no one could ever love something like you' i dropped the knife when i was done and walked out the bathroom closing it not even bothering to clean up the mess. As the blood stained the pearl white tiles i remembered the first time i used the blade. My parents started to abuse me when i was younger, when they found me they broke two bones and almost hanged me but it wasn't there fault they were being controlled by black magic but i continued to harm myself as a way to deal with the pain. I heard the rain starting to fall and lighting strike the earth as if angry with all the mortals for their crimes, I knew it meant Raiden was coming back to the base i small smile graced itself on my lips. Raiden was the only thing i had to look forward to in this world, even though he was not aware of my feelings for him he was the only one that showed he cared. I slipped on a white long sleeve and headed out the door to meet my friend.
{start song now} I placed the head phones in my ears and played my favorite song carelessly shoving my hands in my pockets. I used to think that the singer was singing about me. past memories flooded my mind happy times. I closed my eyes while walking smiling a sad smile imagining the story being told.I walked past all the other teens they said hi but i ignored and continued to walk past everyone and looked at the floor. i felt a lump in my throat as i continued to listen my eyes started to burn with tears i tried to keep it in but i couldnt continue to hide the pain for much longer i started to walk faster.
NORMAL P.O.V
tears feel from your eyes bearing your teeth as anger build up inside of you. When the song was about to end you bumped into something hard. you thought you walked into a wall, you brought your knees up to your chest and hid your face as you allowed the tears to fall from your tired eyes. A silent cry. "(y/n)? i'm sorry are you okay?" you felt hands gently touch you and lift you off the floor.'Raiden' your thoughts echoed "your bleeding....." you looked all over your body not seeing no blood then your eyes shot to your arms the white shirt sleeves were soaked in your blood. "i-its not blood that's a design" a fake smile formed again the same old mask placed on again. behind that mask you were begging to be saved but your cries were never heard. He grabbed your other hand and dragged you towards your room. He pulled you in and closed the door locking it. Your room was always clean so that no one would suspect anything. He looked at you and headed towards your bathroom and opened the door and saw the blood he looked hurt. He looked like as if he was the one who got the blade on his wrist or a knife in the back. "Why didnt you tell me?" his voice soft and saddened but yet anger came out. you walked backwards and looked at him in shock and scared "i-i-i thought you would shun me like my entire family a-and think of me as a mental case" your voice shook "why would shun you when you need me the most....I love (y/n) i would never abandon you" at his words it triggered pain and anger in you "everyone knew said they same thing where are they now! living their own happy lives while i cry myself to sleep.." you sobbed softly Raiden walked up to you and hugged you gently caressing your salted tears away "i promise i'll take the pain away, I'll make sure nothing ever hurts you..... no matter what even if it means risking my life" he kissed your forehead. you looked up at him and he smiled softly kissing your lips gently. His tongue gliding across your lips, you took a deep breath and shivered as his hands rested on your hips comfortably pulling you closer. You parted you lips and allowed him access not even bothering to put up a fight you allowed him to do as he pleased. He sat on the edge of the bed and allowed you to straddle him he kissed you neck leaving wet kisses everywhere. a soft moan left your lips as he did so. sub-consciously you began to grind your hips against his he took in a sharp breath and murmured something under his breath. He removed your shirt and looked at the scars and stared at them in aw, you looked away in shame he held your chin between his index finger and thumb and turned your head so you were looking at him straight in the eyes and pecked your lips
(thats how he kissed you) "promise me you'll never harm yourself again" "i cant promise you that...... but i promise i'll try" Raiden nodded and kissed you a little more roughly. Your fingers played and tangled themselves in his white silver hair. his hips thrusted upward you moaned his name softly, you rubbed yourself against him a little more. you threw your head backward as he fondled with you hardened nipples licking and nipping on each one as you continue you grind against your lover you felt a strange sensation build up in you "im close (y/n)" Raiden whispered deeply in your ears and you nodded unable to find the right words still covered in clothes except for you your shirt was off. Raiden kissed all your scars from time to time he would lick them causing your climax to near you.it felt like they were fading away everytime he kissed you scars tears fell from you eyes. As you never thought that anyone would love you like this. you suddenly picked up your pace and reached your limit as you came Raiden allowed you to ride out your climax as he came not long after. feeling exhausted even though he never took you virginity you allowed him to lay you on the bed and let you catch your breath. you smiled softly and kissed your lover and whispered ' i love you' before a cloud of darkness consumed your sight, and for the first time in a long while you slept without nightmares. Raiden watched you as you fell asleep and smiled softly knowing that your free of the pain now that he's here to rid you of it.
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thank you for reading i hope you like it i put all my feeling into this story... im sorry if its not what you wanted... im not really a good writer but hopefully i'll improve later down in the book soooo. let me know what you'll like to see next and i'll write it immediately. luv you guys byee
mystery~
