Heaven.|| H.S.

chapter 1.

"ONLY 2 PLACES LEFT!" The blonde woman with the loud loud voice yelled at me. Okay...I get that? I think it's obvious when a girl get out of there smiling and another who's crying her eyes out?
You see I'm auditioning for a girl band. That Sony company are asking for 7 girls with different voices different looks and different personalities to join the band. They will practice us vocally and of course the whole dancing thing and how to act infront of the camera and once we are ready we're gonna get out so the public will know us. Kinda of like KPoP routine but whatever I'm glad. I'm a fangirl of little mix and fuck if anything goes wrong everyone judges. "Oh they can't sing" "they can't dance" "she's ugly" "she's fat" "known for her ex" it's too much....I wanna be ready so no one can talk shit.

I'm sitting on the chair in the waiting room. God the girl who got in must be so good she's been their for like 15 minutes...this or Simon is having sex with her.

"You'll do just fine, darling." My mom smiled at me. I gave her a small smile and a nod. But from the inside well....fuck.
"I'm gonna use the restroom." I told her. For like the third time. I got into the restroom and closed the door behind me. I'm so fucking nervous. I looked at my reflection.
"Jesus Christ." Oh great now I'm talking to my own reflection.
I played with my long black hair for a while. Don't get me wrong I love how I look...I love my hair, my thick ass eyebrows, my full lips, my big tites and my full hips. I like the fact that I'm curvy.

But fuck I can't get out like this. I know that if I entered that room like this I'm so gonna fuck up my audition...so eather I finger myself or find a hot guy. And I don't think that I have time to find a guy right now.

I got my white pants off and sat on the closed toilet whith my legs wide open.
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