Ren is living in an apartment alone and she would never admit it but she hates it. She is scared to sleep alone and wants someone to talk to. Little did she know how hard it is to find a roommate. When she does what will happen will they hate each o...
Sorry this took so long I am still finishing packing.
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Ethan is going to kill me for this but above is a picture of the real Ethan
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We went and ate then said goodbye to Lucca as it was supposed to rain rain and he didn't want to penny home in the rain. I had got a call earlier that they wouldn't be needing me on duty at the beach tomorrow which meant I could sleep a little late. Or at least until Ethan has to get up to go to work because then I want to go for a walk.
When Ethan and I got home I was worn out and went straight to change for bed. I walked to Ethan's room and opened his windows that were around his window seat then laid in bed. He came out of the bathroom from getting a shower with just a towel wrapped around his waist. Although I wanted to look I didn't knowing he would have some smart ass remark to say. "Oh Ren I'm sorry I didn't hear you come in here," he said grabbing clothes and heading back to the bathroom to change. I climbed under his covers and got comfortable until he got in bed. I then snuggled up next to him and fell asleep pretty fast may I say.
I woke up to Ethan's arm slipping from my waist. I turned around and he was getting up to get ready. "Oh I'm sorry my daring I didn't mean to wake you. Go back to sleep you don't need to be awake yet," he said coming over and giving me a quick kiss on the forehead then caressing my cheek. I smiled then rolled over and dozed back asleep for 2 more hours.
When I woke up it was to the sound of summer rain pouring down on the streets out side. I went into my room and put on a tank top, blue jean shorts rolled up a bit, a flannel tied around my waist, my maroon short converse, and my army jacket. I then threw my hair up into a pony tail and grabbed my penny.
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Once I got outside and into the almost empty parking lot I felt at ease. The summer rain calmed me with this cool breeze, but made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.
I don't know why but ever since I was a child I had a fascination with rain. Every time it would rain I where I lived as a child I would go down to a big oak tree that rain couldn't get all the way to the trunk and I would sit, I would sit and write. I know your wondering well Ren what could you ever have wrote at such a young age. Well you see in my child hood I would write in this journal. I kept it hidden under my mattress and I would sneak out every time I got inspired about something. I filled 5 journals with little paragraphs and sometimes essays about stupid topics. At the time though they were the most interesting thing.
I put down my penny board and was now riding to the bubble tea shop. Due to all the rain the side walks were for the most part empty besides the few people walking with umbrellas. I got there in the span of about 8 minutes and got my tea in two. I had to get a couple things today so once I was done I went straight to the skate shop and bought a penny bag. I could put a few things in it and it had straps to carry my penny. While I was there I went ahead and bought the board to match then gave my old one to this 13 year old boy in there begging his mom for on. Come on I started at 13 so should he. I grabbed my new back pack and board then headed up the street to Blue Sky Outfiter's. I bought a new Colombia jacket and a blue sky outfitters shirt then put them in my bag. after going to a few more places and ordering some cute throw pillows for Ethan's room, the living room, and my room I decided to go to the salad place. Now don't get me wrong I love my junk food and pancakes but I also really love salads.
When I got done I called and Uber to come drive me home and went straight to the office. So since he moved in I haven't blogged. Which means I had to write a huge apology letter and and write everything thats happened. It had been so much I had just pre-written my whole next week. Once I finished and made some healthy pasta with lemon chicken and olive oil sauce Ethan had gotten him. He looked really happy but I couldn't figure out why so the whole time we were eating my mind was off in another world.
It felt like he wasn't even there and you know what I hate that. I hate the thought of being alone and not accompanied by someone. It scares me. No, not to the thought of being kidnapped but to the thought of letting my mind absently roam. To you that may not mean much, you know, letting your mind wander. But me on the other hand the thought of letting my mind come up with something random and start thinking about it means my mind could go to some deep dark places. Thinking absently with anxiety is a terrible terrible thing to do because there is no doubt that your mind will turn on you and your brain will be telling you one thing. So obviously you listen to it thinking its right when its dragging you from believing the real truth right in-front of you. I mean thats just my opinion but I have a point and you know it. Your brain is not always write I mean nor is whats right in-front of you but who says we can all trust what our brain tells us.
So I spent the whole diner letting my mind wander before finally giving up and going to bed.
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The chapter before the last sentence is me ranting on a word document about my felling about being alone. I felt as if I should enter them somewhere so I did.
