You // Jungkook

Save Me

Lily stood there scared, but not scared of Namjoon, but of me. She stood still with the tears falling down her face. We all stood there quietly. We didn't make any moves. She just stared at me in disbelief. I was scared. Lily was a crying mess at the moment. She fell to the ground and cried. I didn't dare make one move towards her. I looked over to Namjoon, but all he did was smirk in return of her crying. My blood boiled as I stared at him. Jungkook pulled me closer to his side. He knew that something was going to go wrong. I looked up at Jungkook and he just stared at Namjoon for longer. It was silent. No one was here at the park. The wind blew past us like we were ghost waiting to be dragged away. It blew like we weren't even there. The only thing that was there were Lily's cries. It was getting darker and the more it got darker, it seemed like Lily's cries would get louder. By now, she would start falling asleep, but she did no such thing. Her cries were heavy as they plopped onto the grass. It was like it was raining on all of us. At that time, I wondered if her tears would stop. Jungkook just quietly stood there staring at Namjoon as he walked away from the situation. I then ran to Lily's side. I was going to ask her if she was okay, but I was suddenly slapped in the face by her hand making a red mark on my face. I looked at her as her eyes were full of rage. There was one thing I never knew she would say to me. 

"I hate you." 

I stared at her fiery eyes that were burning me down. I was shocked on many levels as she sat there with her fists tight. She kept repeating those three words to me with knives. I felt like I was the bad guy. I felt like I was the person throwing knives at everyone. Because of me, Jungkook was going through all of this. Because of me, everyone is easy to use. Because of me, Lily is the girl being killed at this moment. I felt the burning on my cheek. It burned, but I felt like I deserved it. I then looked at the dark ground. It stung to look at everything. My eyes stung. It was becoming blurry. Then my own tears fell. Was I the one drowning now. I moved away from Lily and stood up. I held my burning cheek as tears fell down faster stinging it. I didn't dare look up at Jungkook or Lily. I just looked at the ground while rain fell and hit the grass faster. 

"I-I didn't mean to. I-I'm so s-sorry," I stuttered as I finally looked at her. "I-I-I d-didn't m-mean any of this." I bit my lip nervously and then bowed at her. "I-I'll be l-leaving now." I turned my back towards them and started running away. Faster, faster, faster  was all that was going on in my mind. I kept running with my tears falling down my face like streams. The wind seemed to cut my skin each time I took another step. I heard cars all working and running off somewhere, like I was. I swerved through the open spaces between people until I was pulled back from running. I looked up with my nose numb and my eyes probably swollen from crying. They widened as I saw Jungkook's worried face. 

"What are you doing?! You could've gotten killed!" He yelled at me. I looked behind me and there was the road. "Do you want to kill yourself?!" I answered immediately to that. 

"Yes, I do," I yelled back. "I've caused so much pain already! I hate myself!" I cried in my hands while I faced him. I felt him tense down and then pulled me into a hug. I had muffled cries as I made Jungkook's shirt soaked. 

The sunlight was playing peek-a-boo with me as I sat in bed with my back against the headboard. I stared at the sunlight. I had woken up early and remembered what had just happened yesterday. I just sat there with my knees against my chest. I had another crying session after thinking about Lily. I was calm now and was staring at the pillows I moved so I could sit against the headboard. I stared at the silky sheets move because of my feet controlling it. I didn't make any noises. I stared at Jungkook sleeping soundly. He probably gave me a piggyback ride home last night. His face looked so peaceful as he slept. "How can you sleep so peacefully when I'm in so much pain?" I asked quietly. Tears seemed to catch up and fall onto my skin. I sniffled a bit and wiped my tears away. "Why aren't you awake to hug me?" I put my arms on the knees resting against my chest and put my head there to make the sobbing quieter. I then felt arms wrap around me and pull me close. I turned to face him and rested my head against his chest. "Why weren't you awake earlier?" I cried.